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| NP | 3[6w5]8 so/sp | Type thread | My typing of forum members | Johari (Strengths) | Nohari (Weaknesses)
You know what? You're an individual, and that makes people nervous. And it's gonna keep making people nervous for the rest of your life. - Ole Golly from Harriet, the spy.
False generalizations are bad, true generalizations are not bad. If I would say that everyone around here is homosexual, I would be making a false generalization. But I didn't do that. I didn't even say that IEEs in general are less logical and less scientific than some other type. What I actually did say was that IEEs are less logical and less scientific than Ezra, and that happens to be a true generalization as far as I can tell. At least I know for sure that there is no IEE in the whole world that is more logical and more scientific in his or her approach than I am myself. And I see some clear similarities in thinking and general approach between myself and Ezra, which probably is due to us both havingin our ego blocks.
Because Beta and Gamma fit me better than Alpha or Delta, and I put this down to my valuing or being proficient in Se, and because my entire life is based around achieving something worthwhile - getting a good job, making good money - with a constant eye on my future, especially the ways in which what I do now will affect me at a later date (this is primarily Ni valuing, but if I explain why I am Ni valuing as well as Se valuing, it gives a pretty good case for the fact that I'm Se/Ni valuing; not Ne/Si valuing).
The thing is, I never claimed I was tough. People put that name on me. I am loud around people, and they get annoyed; I'm renowned for my loudness, and my hearty laugh. I am unintentionally aggressive in my speech, and this is simply because I'm a very enthusiastic and energetic person; it's my way of expressing my energy. It's not some tough guy act I put on to impress others; this would be completely foolish. So, I'm not aggressive in the sense that I go around picking fights with everyone, but it comes through a lot in my speech, which indicates to others that I do have a lot of energy. As for the domination that I often attribute to myself, this is mainly a subset of my aggression levels. Because I'm so enthusiastic in argument and conversation, it looks like I'm vehemently attacking people, but in reality, I just get fuelled from debates with others. It's true, I can be a very bad listener, and I love to put my view across, which makes people think I am further attacking them in some way, which is why I often make a conscious effort to be enthusiastic about their opinion or point of view by saying "hmm, that's actually really interesting; I haven't considered that before".
Do you understand now what I mean about being loud, dominating and aggressive? Of course it's based around others' perceptions of me. That's why I told you when I first came here. It's not that I can't think for myself, or because I wanted to big myself up in some way, it's just that I wanted you to get a good picture of how I am in real life.
Obviously, I am physically a weakling, and my figure can look womanly. My strength is in my willpower, my mindframe, and my energy, so I concentrate on this. I don't need a big, buff, muscular body to go with it. I've had a lot of fights with others at school, more than most people in my year actually; I wasn't picked on, but the bully victim would attack me, because he knew I was one of the weakest people. I either beat him (sometimes because of his low morale* (no one liked him), sometimes because everyone would pile in and finish him off while I walked off feeling "all that"), or it was a draw (end of break ("recess" to you Americans), it was broken up by a member of staff or by a sixth former). I fought a few others, and never lost as such.
Generally, yes.
*Once, the crowd of people surrounding one guy and myself actually made him cry, and he wanted to shake hands, so I did so, despite the goading: "HIT THE FUCKER! FINISH HIM OFF!".