Hey, that was all in one post. Good job!
I have another question, if you don't mind: When you write things, like the above, is it more of a, hm, note to yourself or are you trying to tell somebody else something? Another way of asking the same thing - do you write what you do as an expression of what's transpiring in your head and you don't really care who or if anyone reads it, or do you write with the specific aim of communicating something to the people who you want to read it?
That's an honest question - it would help me understand you better.