Member Questionnaire 1 (GreenCoyote)
What is beauty? What is love? beauty is something that strikes me and makes me feel alive when I am looking or experiencing it. Love is a feeling that happens when you feel a bond with someone.
What are your most important values? yikes! I don't normally answer questions about my values. mainly because I am not really sure what mine are. uh... next question please... ha ha
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? I believe in a force ai sort of discovered on my own. it is looking out for me and helps me and if I want I can tap into it. If I want something to happen pretty badly then it usually does. I don't label it as god or anything. or think of it like prayer though I can see the similarities. I found it on my own so I know its real to me and that's all that matters.
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? war is dumb. fighting is dumb. I don't get it at all. Power to me is money and likeablility.
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? I don't have too many long conversations but I feel most relaxed when other people talk about their feelings of love and how they view their relationships, especially when it is filled with authentic emotion that I can feel. that's the best feeling. I know I feel love in a sort of obsessive way and for me love feels more like a drug addiction than anything as pure and idealized as I have heard some people talk about it. I honestly haven't had a long conversation in a while.
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? I am not that good about talking about health stuff. sometimes I will know something about my own body and will have to figure out that for example putting salt on my avocado is actually making my joints hurt. so then I will stop doing it and the pain will go away. stuff like that. I like to care for myself as best I can.
What do you think of daily chores? I hate them. I'd rather work job and get paid to do them.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. The Umbrella academy. I like anything fantasy and or sci fi that is compelling. Books. Octavia butlers series about psychics was amazing Mind of my Mind but her work can get too dark and disturbing sometimes. I like stuff about magic and powers but tend to shy away from anything too psychologically disturbing.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? I cry about beauty, I cry about my own pain. Sometimes I know I need to cry and a few days later I will at something. I smile at lots of things. can't think of anything in particular.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? I guess the first time I ever felt this, besides with my family at holiday parties was in school when I discovered theatre kids and drama club. I loved the expressiveness and openness of everyone. people seemed way more happy and positive here and I felt appreciated right away. never was I accepted so quickly and so warmly by a group of people.
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? People say I sometimes give too much advice when it isn't asked for. Other people say I am too obsessed with my interests and is couldn't bring them up at parties. I dislike that I don't have high enough energy levels and that I can't do more in day. I feel like I never have enough time and yet I don't have enough energy to work more. I guess just not having enough energy. I hate that when I get stressed out I explode and get violent and have mental breakdowns. I just can't handle the same amount of stress other people can and it is really really annoying.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? Funny. I have been asking people this and all they really say is I have swag and I am funny and that sometimes we click on worldview that are identical. I like that I have a good grip on manifesting in my life. I have learned that if I think of something I want I can materialize it. but normally I don't use this because I take things more as they come and have been kind of complacent lately.
In what areas of your life would you like help? this is a hard question... my first response is that I don't think I want help but I probably wouldn't mind someone just spending time with me and maybe sharing my interests and sense of humor. I would like help being more persuasive and likable.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. If I feel like I have no friends that I connect with I feel stuck. lately I can't seem to meet the right people and I can feel really alone feeling like an alien to others. I want to do something to break out of it and if I do do that it only satisfies me for a short bit before I start losing connection with people and feel alone again.
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? I like people who can enjoy a good time. Laughter is big with me and I like to feel alive after hanging out with someone. I also like to make people laugh which for me is hard to come by. I laugh pretty easily though at most peoples jokes or just their situations they are in that I find funny. I think I appreciate people who enjoy my joes because it is so rare to find them. I get along with relaxed types of people who are not to loud or pushy. I have found people with a lot of energy that just blasts out all over the place can be kind of annoying.
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? I can be very passionate sometimes but as I get older I feel like I don't care too much about getting laid. it's not a main drive for me anyway. If a partner was extra sexy I prolly would want sex more than I naturally do. so maybe that would be good in a partner. but I also wouldn't want to accidentally get turned on in public so maybe not too hot. I actually don't know. this is just speculation. I feel I will know when I am in that relationship.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? I would want my children to be happy and successful. I want them safe but also able to live life to the fullest. I think I would want them to have an easy life and a way in this world that fits their natural talents in a way that will also have them be successful and secure financially.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? Outward reaction is stoic or unreadable. Most people can't tell how I feel and especially can't tell when I am angry until I explode. but inwardly I start resenting them, thinking of ways to avoid them and maybe secretly wishing a bit of harm to them, all in the safe confines of my own mind however :)
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. I feel like I am totally disconnected from society. I see people as warm and nice usually and sometimes a little destructive as a whole. A prevalent social problem is either not discussing ideas enough, littering too much and also being unable to laugh easily.
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? I feel like I don't choose my friends, but usually I behave in a joking way although most people don't laugh at my jokes.
How do you behave around strangers? Reserved, maybe a little more outgoing in formal settings once I get a feel for a person. Some people I will start talking to right away and make compliments if they give off a certain feel or they remind me of someone who made me feel good in my past.