I did a pretty bad job of articulating my thoughts. What I had in mind was the feelings associated with things like being existentially lonely, having unobtainable dreams, battling ghosts from the past, etc, longer term stuff, not so much about expression. I can rationalize or kinda woo-woo my way into "being at peace" with those kind of things and I feel like I've transcended them or something, lol, but then I really haven't. What @
strrrng said about it taking work to create something authentic in relation to it was really good. Also what @
ouronis said about squaring it with your overall values, cuz I would trick myself less in proportion to how much I am honest with myself about myself.