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Turn into a clown
Everywhere I go
Feeling like a joke
With everyone I know
Feeling sad and low
I have nowhere to go
Feeling like a clown
Everything's a joke
I feel like I'm so slow
My feelings never show
To anyone I know
Keep it all inside
A jester in real life
Feeling like a clown
Turn into a clown
Feeling so let down
What has my life become?
Mistakes can't be undone
Not having any fun
Don't talk to anyone
Feeling like a clown
What do they know of Europe
Who only Europe know?
And the day they sold us out
Our hearts grew cold
'Cause we were never asked
No brother, we were told!
What do they know of Europe?
Who only Europe know?
A broken brain, a broken mind
I don't know why I even try
I feel so low all the time
I hate myself, I wanna fucking die
Defect, defect, I'm a reject
I think I need a factory reset
Defect, defect, I'm a reject
I think I need a factory reset
Everyone hates me
My brain is rotting going crazy
Can't live like this anymore
Life is shit and there is no reward
God asked me should he ought to put his world on the left, no
God asked me should he ought to put his world on the right, no
I said God, it really doesn't matter where you put your world
Someone will come along and move it
And it's always been the same
It's just a complicated game
I've been cut before
I don't fear the sight of blood
I've been hurt even more
What I fear is not the cut
I just decided by the grace of the God Poseidon
That you so dead to me I dug a hole for you to lie in
I'm sick and disownin' all the moments
And the key components
That led me to follow hollow promises from empty monads
It's 11 degrees and I can see my breath so I know I'm breathin'
But I got no pulse I swear to Thelema my heart ain't beatin' I better get
Back to the black hole Sun, leavin' my gun
I don't need to fold this for no one
Findin' the silver lining and I'm minin' for hope
Tryin' to keep my wrists closed
You are toxic
My blood, your lips
I always pushed you away when you tried to open up
Can't stand to see you with him, even just in a dream
Why always this jealousy? I'm so sick with it
Why do I let this mess me around?
Such a waste of time
Why do I wanna make myself like that?
Wish you gave me your number
Wish I could call you today
Just to hear a voice
I got a long way to go
I'm getting further away
If I didn't know the difference
Living alone'd probably be okay
It wouldn't be lonely
I got a long way to go
I'm getting further away
A lot of hours to occupy
It was easy when I didn't know you yet
Things I'd have to forget
But I better be quiet now
I'm tired of wasting my breath
Carrying on, and getting upset
Maybe I got a problem
But that's not what I wanted to say
I'd prefer to say nothing
I got a long way to go
I'm getting further away
My skirt sways palely in the wind,
As I tremble at these words of parting.
According to you,
It’s your fault, not mine,
But can you give me a reason?
If I could laugh like her,
Cry like her,
And be more dependent…
… would I still be by your side?
Goodbye!
The sound of you calling my name,
Is still spinning around inside my head.
Goodbye!
It’s not too late,
For you to embrace these trembling shoulders.
Unreliable stars and far-off neon signs,
Color the ending of this poorly written story.
Your favorite colored skirt is swaying in the wind,
But even if we could laugh like we did before, we can never be together.
Goodbye!
The sound of you calling my name,
Is still spinning around inside my head.
Goodbye!
It’s not too late,
For you to embrace these trembling shoulders.
Goodbye!
You’re looking up to the sky,
And I can’t stop watching you.
Goodbye!
I’ll whisper this one word,
And keep the rest locked within my heart…
… hoping that some day you’ll come back to me.
I know I don't know you
I know that we don't think along the same lines
But what do I do when I can't reach out
Through this iron-built bubble of pain?
Your house settled in deep country
With acres and a farm and a stream to cleanse me
Your house with a view of purity
Overlooks a hillside of green, green as your eyes
I embrace the moment, I'm in love with a dream
And toy with ideas that burn deep inside me
Because a picture is all you are to me
A picture is all you'll ever be
I know you don't know me
A nervous, wordless face brings shade to your light
But I want so bad to walk beside you
But fall back into a world where I believe
So I'm cutting that branch off the cherry tree
Singing, "This will be my victory, "
I think I'm in love
Probably just hungry
I think I'm your friend
Probably just lonely
I think you got me in a spin, now
Probably just turning
I think I'm a fool for you, babe
Probably just yearning
I think I can rock and roll
Probably just twisting
I think I wanna tell the world
Probably ain't listening
I feel so depressed
I feel so upset
I don't feel a thing
Only apathy
Nothing ever goes my way
I just stay inside all day
I hope this feeling doesn't stay
My whole family thinks I'm gay
Today a thousand years
Of strained affection and prayer
"Out beyond ideas of right and wrong is a field"
Will I meet you there?
Will I meet you there?
The summer garden blooms
With autumn soon replaced
Another harvest moon
So many ways to lose
So many faiths
'Holy to the LORD' on the bells of horses
Safely on the shore we sank like stones
To the bottom of a made up ocean
slit my wrists and hope to die
crawling out my insides
outside mcdonalds at 12:05
need that burger or i'll die
that burger
i'm gonna relapse
can u fucking
believe this?
my head hurts
when i'm with you
my heart hurts
when i eat u
all i wanted was a fucking cheeseburger
all i like is that fkn quarter pounder
Please don't act like you don't understand
Like you don't know who I am
Like you don't know where I stand
We both know that you're playing around
So just cut it out
Just don't let me down
Don't let me down
I don't believe you
Please don't lie
If you're not honest then I'll just die
Not in the mood to play any games
Don't be so lame
You're being really lame
I want you to be true
I want you to be true
I'm getting bored of being a fool
Getting used like a tool
Bored like I'm in school
I'm really anxious to make it work
So don't treat me like a jerk
Don't treat me like I'm dirt
Don't treat me like I'm dirt
I wanna love you
Don't you know?
If I can't have you then I'll just go
You know I'll love you through and through
So don't make me blue
Just please be true
We could get high in Miami
Dance the night away
People never die in Miami
That’s what they all say
I felt your fall, your winter snows, your gusty blow, your lava flow...
I felt it all:
Your starry night,
Your lack of light.
With limp arms I can feel most of you.
I hung around your neck independently
And my loss was overwhelmed
By this new depth I don't think I ever felt.
But I don't know
My nights are cold.
And I remember a warmth...
I could have sworn
I wasn't alone.
edit: this song makes me cry and i have no clue why
I'll tell you something kid, you're certainly ambitious
But if I was you I'd get a useful job in maybe business
Cause what you feel don't matter, everybody's got something to say but
Nobody's got the time to listen to it anyway
And I'll tell you something else, time will set you free
No more caring what they think, no more chasing your vanity
But if you ever get the chance to slip through the cracks, well
Take that money straight to the bank baby, no never ever look back
Is she ready to know my frustration?
What she slippin' inside, slow castration
I'm a riddle so strong, you can't break me
Did she come here to try, try to take me
Did she call my name?
I think it's gonna rain
Oh, when I die
Was it something I said, held against me?
Ain't no life on the run, slowly climbing
Caught in ice so she stares, stares at nothing
I can help her but won't, now she hates me
Did she call my name?
I think it's gonna rain
Oh, when I die
She won't let me hide
She don't want me to cry
Will she keep on the ground, trying to ground me
Slowly forgive my lie, lying to save me
Could she love me again, or will she hate me
Probably not, I know why, can't explain me
Waste away for 8 hours a day
Slave away just so I could get paid
I wanna get away and I wanna get laid
I'm a corporate slave for minimum wage
My younger self would be ashamed of me
At the sorry state that I've come to be
Never made it into magazines
A flop, a failure, straight to DVD
I neglect myself like my parents
My mom still thinks I'll get married
Phone storage filled with dating apps
Days filled with gorging and taking naps
I know that I will be my own doom
So I'd rather stay cooped up in my room
A place where daylight aches
It’s all unreal to you
A sunset calls me here
I swear to love it’s true
So alien this vaulted screen
And patterns form into contours
The dark around me dense as matter
A stellar quake fills the astral space
How dare you not to see?
My tears are gifts to you
A heart you must set free
How dare you not believe?
Because I freeze in the warmth, in the glow of Helios
Sweat in the heart of summers drained
And radiant life to falter and beautiful tears to dry
I’m gracefully bowing
In horror
Waterless like the ocean
Drizzling like the deserts
Come emerge and wallow
Pretend like nothing at all
Along the whirlwinds in your head
A place where daylight aches
It’s all unreal to you
A world we must set free
I swear to love it’s true
Petrified spirit, dilated stare
I’m piercing through these icy shackles
Somehow cast around this nebula
Unwilling to enter my birth
Would you take my hand and follow through the ether?
Would you sweat and dance in winter's bloom?
For radiant life to falter and beautiful tears to dry
I'm gracefully bowing
In sorrow
On my suicide cloud
Left me in the pit of my morning pout
An emptiness throughout
This scarred and sullied soul you threw out
What possessed you not to include me?
How have you failed to invite me?
How could you laugh with her in that theater
When you're off and I'm alone?
I've got a bad disease
But from my brain is where I bleed.
Insanity it seems
Has got me by my soul to squeeze.
Well all the love from thee
With all the dying trees I scream.
The angels in my dreams (yeah)
Have turned to demons of greed that's mean.
Where I go I just don't know
I got to got to gotta take it slow.
When I find my piece of mind
I'm gonna give you some of my good time.
Today love smiled on me.
It took away my pain say please
All that you had to free
You gotta let it be oh yeah.
Where I go I just don't know
I got to got to gotta take it slow.
When I find my piece of mind
I'm gonna give you some of my good time.
Oh, so polite indeed
Well I got everything I need.
Oh make my days a breeze
And take away my self destruction.
It's bitter baby,
And it's very sweet.
I'm on a rollercoaster,
but I'm on my feet.
Take me to the river,
Let me on your shore.
I'll be coming back baby,
I'll be coming back for more.
Doo doo doo doo dingle zing a dong bone
Ba-di ba-da ba-zumba crunga cong gone bad
I could not forget
But I will not endeavor
Simple pleasures aren't as special
But I won't regret it never.
Where I go I just don't know
I got to got to gotta take it slow.
When I find my piece of mind
I'm gonna give you some of my good time.
Where I go I just don't know
I might end up somewhere in Mexico.
When I find my piece of mind
I'm gonna keep you for the end of time.
I love that album.Quote:
Originally Posted by Vex
Jack Enmipho had the stuff
But he couldn't get up
So he decided to stay
He was reelin' south bound
With the walls turning 'round
Ready or not, here it comes
La mer
Au ciel d'été
Confond ses blancs moutons
Avec les anges si purs
La mer
Bergère d'azur, infinie
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there's fluoride in my brain
i'm not ok, i'm feeling drained
i'm watching youtube all day
i wanna shoot out my brains
checking your instagram page
nothing's new, nothing's changed
i'm watching tv again
everyday feels like it's hell
and all the threads that
i have scrolled
don't seem to help
they make it worse
and i'm so bored
i feel so low
nothing makes sense
to me anymore
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
I’ve traveled the world and the seven seas
Everybody’s lookin’ for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
i don't have any friends
my life is a mistake
i no longer care
since everything is fake
i feel like i'm already dead
but i don't even care
everything's unreal
it's all a fucking joke
but i no longer care
the world is going to end
i feel like i'm already dead
but i don't even care
Heard this song on the radio. To this day, every time I hear it, I think of my SLE ex. I'm over him, but for some reason, I still can't listen to this song without thinking of him. It's been years.
You are the hole in my head
You are the space in my bed
You are the silence in between
What I thought and what I said
You are the night-time fear
You are the morning when it's clear
When it's over you'll start
You're my head, you're my heart
No light, no light in your bright blue eyes
I never knew daylight could be so violent
A revelation in the light of day
You can't choose what stays and what fades away
And I'd do anything to make you stay
No light, no light
(No light)
Tell me what you want me to say
I SUFFER FROM A LACK OF CONCENTRATION
(I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO CONCENTRATE)
The sky took its cue, every color and hue on display
Till thick veils of indigo signaled the end of the day
But each landscape that lies in the mirror of your eyes turns to grey
On the edge of a knife, it's like you're living your life on the stage
You're talking through glass, we're just square photographs on a page
Oh we're never alone but we're each in our own little cage
And the magic light that appears to shine
Is not the light of benevolent design
So no maker made me
Everything I believed has died so silently
Now I live on a wire chasing shadows
While my mind is tired
But my heart's too stubborn to let go
And no maker made me
I will never be hijacked by the fairytale
We can always just fuck away our sorrows
Mouth to mouth we thrive
We've got everything we need to survive
No maker made me
(You fucking sinner)
I can hear them
Speaking in the next room
As they drink and start
Losing control and get louder
They lose control and get louder
They wonder about me
I can hear her
Twirling the ice with her finger
She's got that
Half-dead look in her eyes by now
She worries about me
He's not like the
The other boys around here
He says nothing and sits in his
Room and he's afraid to
And he's afraid to drive a car
So sad he is
And he's afraid to drive a car
So sad he is
My soul is worn
I've been here many times before
I need to breach this place
I'm bound to tempt the fates
I'll march until they know my name
Living in total squalor
Every day is painful
And my sanity is slipping away
Laundry is piling up
Trash bags are filling up
And my mind is never ever at peace
Gotta be gaming all night and day
Until I top frag the server I will play
Caff'd up and alert with nicotine
Lock my door because I can't be seen
Ignore reality away
Gaming all day every day
It's time to play again it's time to forget
XP bar is so looking full
Top frag on the scoreboard
Get called a virgin no life hacker again
Maybe I'll start with some chores
But soon enough my brain gets bored
It screams for happy chems to me
An eternal slave to the industry
On the black wind forever, we ride on together
Destroying your evil, with freedom our guide
When the master will guard us, he'll stand high before us
Our hearts filled with splendor, our souls will shine over the light
Wasted all my time again
On the internet
Eyes bloodshot I want to die
Its 6 AM
Time for work time to log off
Time to shut down
I wish I didn’t stay up all night
I wish I had self control
Looking at the time again
Maybe
I’ll be able to sleep at work
Maybe
I’ll slam another energy drink
Hands shaking my feet are numb
I feel so dumb
Stomach hurts, can’t concentrate
Feeling sorry for myself
Tonight I’ll self improve
I will sleep on time
I won’t play any video games
I won’t press F5
Feeling angry all the time
Always pissed off
Unstable emotions
I might have low T
It's no good it's liquid poison
But I just can’t stop
Losing hair face full of zits
I’m all fucked up
Ain't nobody freak like me
Give ya what you need like me
Ain't nobody got on they tip, tip toes and rode to the tip like me
I got 'em addicted, he fiendin'
My body a drug and he need it
He begging me for the treatment
He throw a fit when I leave 'em