Hi. And thanks.
1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is something that attracts. If we are talking about a person it may be body (outward beauty), may be personality (inward beauty).
Love for most is a state, sometimes a whole worldview. Love doesnt require reasoning- it is unconditional. Unconditional love love a person, world, whatever without reasoning- you dont care if it is beautiful, smart, kind, rich, cool.... you love it no matter what. It is the best feeling one can feel, it is devine, pure feeling.
2. What are your most important values?
Justice, truth, widsom, comfort, tolerance.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I dont believe in any religions, but i do have spiritual beliefs. I live according to them, because i see them as true. I believe that person should never put any of earthy values above God (ehhh, i dont like calling it God, i'd call it whatever- universe, creator, love...) because only then one will be able to live a completely happy life, get whatever he wants and grow.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Militaries? It is pointless. Countries have nuclear bombs why play with little soldiers? Just kidding. Probably they do something useful in third world countries... ehhh, i dont have a releavant opinion on this.
Wars? Mundane and animalistic, pointless mincer. How much/ why people actually care what 'his country has achieved'??? I cant agree with people who care. It is NOT their achievement (so why be proud?...), tons of people were killed just to prove lets say 'the only right ' or for bigger countrie's teritorry and money. I wish Zeitgeist (the Venus project) would come to reality. I dont believe it will, at least not soon, but it is still such a nice idealogy.
Power is ability to control. It doesnt matter if yourself or masses. It is art through- e.g I hate when people come and tell me what to do (but i probably will keep my principles to myself and do. haha i am weak here. But when i am rigid it means i am rigid. That happens rarely but anyways)
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
About philosophy, religions, paranormal experiences. I can talk about these things forever. I like listening to other views too (i may not accept them as true, but other's opinions complement and test mine).
My interests are these written above + psychology, ezothery, drawing. Also i love whatching random documentaries, mostly about wierd animals, cultures, countries, history, wars... now i hooked on typologies too. It is summer now. 2/3 of days i spend learning about this stuff. I just want to understand how world completely, i want knowledge, it is really intresting.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Yes, but mostly people annoy me here. Most of them believe in whatever they read/ whatch without thinking if it is really true, how much it helps. Well, i count my calories (+-). I must do this otherwise i overeat and gain weigh. My appearance is important for me, but i dedicate much less time for this than other 17een year olds.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
Not my style. I tidy when i feel like/ when it is really necessary and that is enough. Daily chores frustate.
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
I like sarcastic, 'contentious' (lol, i dont know how to explain... ones without half page long flower's leaf descriptions. I hate long descriptions of things, have no patience to read them) literature. I love 'hard' books that i need to chew myself. I always read on the bus (using time), but almost never at home. I like books that are useful to read- i read mostly psychological literature. Very picky for fiction and not such a big fan of it.
I like whatching movies more than reading books- if i am intrested in story/ thing and want to explore deeper i will read a book. I am not picky here.
My favourite ones:
Books: Diagnostics of Karma, The elegance of the hedgehog, Apocalypse (by Tim Bowler).
Movies: 1 Litre of tears (series), House m.d (i didnt liked the series itself, but i loved this guy's personality and jokes. I ended up depressed for a week when he died lol), Hunger games, Amelie.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Ahhh, emotions. I am on rollercoaster here. Recently, i watched some videos about orka Lolita. She is an oldest orka living in captivity. It made me cry, because she was captured from ocean, forced to live in such a small places... things like these make me especially sad, because they even cant defend??? Someone should at least give them a proper pool to live in.
Yesterday i accidentelly hurt one person and he started to shout at me and call words. I know he didnt meant it and it was my fault, but i still started to cry, of course not in front of him. I cry alone.
Smile? A lot of stuff makes me smile, it is not hardd.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
At nature in general.
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
My lack of social skills/ mistrust of people/ unability to stand up/ stubborness. I act carelessly and fun when i am around people, always dont hear important stuff like what is for homework or when and where i need to meet with someone. A lot of people missjudge that as being stupid (and i really get why.. it is definelly bad). Actually, people perceive me as wierd and weak.
Fear of interpersonal commitments and lack of social skills. Really, i hate this. I have tons of superficial relationships but dont have deep ones because i dont want these commitments.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Insight. I read people well. People always ask me how do i knew that. Also they like my sense of humour and my ramdomness. I look like dummy until they start talking about real stuff.
Me, myself value my knowledge (i am not 'smart', i just know more than average 17een year old, because they dont care lol). I dont go with croud opinions, i choose mine thoughtfully.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Help hmm. Someone to help me to choose a right career (studies).
14. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
Honestly, widsom understandment ('soul clossiness') and humour- these are 4 main qualities i love.
People who lack ethics, think they are the only ones who are right, people who brutally want to get into my bussiness or 'solve' me- i dislike them.
15. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
Hmm... well that is natural. Cuddling feels good. I like fatties lol. They dont give me preassure. UNDERSTANDMENT. I have met few guys in my life who could understand me just by looking into eyes and no, they didnt knew me good. I really appreciate being understanded without words. I like deep guys who are chatty at the same time. They are fascinating.
16. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
That they will grow up unsocial/ way too private/scared of people. By observation. Because i experienced it myself. I am not like that anymore but i still lack socialness.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
I will fire up. I am such a hyper sensitive person and i literally get shaky when in intresting discussion.
Outward- argue. Challenge other views. I am not a fast thinker, but i can see flaws in other ones fast. I am 'challenging' a view, not a person. I dont want to hurt or conflict with anyone. I may agree with someone who is important to me on outside if needed, but inside i will not. I dont like it, but i dont want a conflict either. If i am debating with unsensitive people who cant get their feelings hurt easily then i go till the end and stay with my belief. I like 2nd variant much more through.
19. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
Mostly by observation. At first a little constrained, but after a while freely. It is really depening on mood. If i am on right mood i may joke around if i am sad i wont talk at all.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
They make me uncomfortable a little. If someone would try to approach me i would respond and i'd prefer this to happen.
P.S Sorry for english :))
