Originally Posted by
Nico1e
Yeah, if you're able to magically do impossible things, then it makes sense to do an ideal date with somebody that you can't possibly have an ideal date with. If you could make an ideal date with your conflictor, then you would resolve all the problems of all the intertype relations forever. You would have confronted the worst case scenario and succeeded. It would be the beginning of a lasting peace between all the warring types.
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As for my own ideal date, I have writer's block. I can't even imagine it. It is inconceivable.
In order for my date to be ideal, several impossible things would have to happen first. I would have to have been freed from my slavery in order that I might be capable of enjoying my date. So my ideal date occurs on the day after I am freed from my slavery. At that point, I can enjoy the time I spend with my partner, and almost any activity at all that we do together will be worthwhile.
So long as I still suffer from the problems that I suffer from right now, I will not be able to deeply enjoy any time I spend interacting with my partner. I cannot fully participate mentally, spiritually, sexually, physically, emotionally, and whatever else. There will always be part of me that is held back and kept silent.
My ideal date involves a partner who believes me whenever I describe to him the bizarre and unimaginable things that I have learned and experienced in the past few years. He says, 'Okay, these things that you're describing are real, they're terrible and they're frightening, but they're real.' He accepts that I am competent to see the world accurately and that I am competent to correctly interpret the things that I see.
Either that, or else he is someone who already knows about all those bizarre and unbelievable things, and I don't even have to struggle to convince him that they are real.
Even more ideal would be someone who magically had an existing solution to those problems. He would simply 'fix it.' Hmph.
Assuming that the 'problems' have been 'solved,' and assuming that it's actually possible to make the problems stop happening, then what would be my ideal date?
There is not just one single ideal date. There are infinity possible dates. We would have an entire lifetime of special moments ahead of us in all the time that we would spend together. I would be happy and healthy and capable of enjoying the time we spent together. We would learn new things, go new places, read new books, meet new people, and explore the world. I would remember how to have fun. We would have long conversations, and I would laugh and laugh and laugh. I would look into his eyes, and - I would see his soul and he would see mine, like all the world around us was silent. I would remember that I am alive. I would remember that my life matters.
(Long story, but my weird behavior should be going back to normal pretty soon. I won't be writing dozens of extremely long posts all over the forum several times a day anymore.)
