Originally Posted by
Shang Tsung
Lol what a shitty thread, why do I occasionally get ESI things.... I think ILE is solid option on the VI side. I think LII is a solid option on the side of my writing.
But ESI, I'm the furthest thing from one.... ESI is typically e2-ish, I'm hardly e2. I'm a complete asshole with people and have trouble relating to Fi. I'm so much more of a thinker its insane, all my friends I've ever had never have seen me as a person with a "huge heart" or whatever... in fact I regularly get shit from my parents, my friends, my colleagues, whatever for being too thinking and sometimes aloof/difficult. I primarily interact with people by conversation which is bent towards thinking. I think my friends, family, and colleagues would describe me as interesting and bright to people I know and reserved towards people I don't know mostly with the ability to turn my reserve off when I want to.
Really if there was one thing I suck at its emotional things, and not emotional things in terms of art/writing/psychology things... but emotional things in terms with being that person that supports people, always there to help, a caring person etc. In most of my interaction I do help people its more on the basis of using my skills or abilities to perform some task for them, stuff like "hey my computer's broken".... I'll fix that. Not "hey I'm depressed".... I'll fix that by being a shoulder to lean on etc, by simply "being there" etc.... I'm not that kind of person at all.
Further the idea of my being a "Sensor" is pretty ridiculous. I went to school in San Antonio my first year of college and I realized driving through the area I went to school how much of an intuitive I actually was -- half the area I hardly even recognized, the sensory details almost entirely escaped me of the area, I found that I only recognized certain key landmarks. Thinking on this I realized when I was there I hardly ever paid attention to my surroundings besides a few key things, everything else was merely space in between that was insignificant. I never really took in the sensory details of the area, and I remember how much time I spent in my head the first year there. I roomed with 3 people I knew from high school, but since I was looking to transfer out after the first year my reality with people was very constrained. I would see a few people around campus I sort of knew, would talk to them, and never saw them after I left, hung out mostly with my roommates, and would go back to Austin at any chance I got to hang out with people I knew rather than trying to expand myself socially there. In the time in between all of this I would study, write music, and smoke weed most of my time... I remember the entire thing being very empty in terms of people and me spending more time in my head than I would like, mostly empty space I would fill with work-music-weed-thinking with occasional adventures I would undertake with my friends that I knew really well. It was pretty obvious to me on reflection on exactly how intuitive that was and how intuitive that sounded. Intuition is typically describe as a lot of things but one particularly interesting definition of the term is related to the idiom "intuitive leap"... the concept of arrive at a conclusion suddenly without a clear knowledge of the steps in between, the idea of connecting the dots, gestalt thinking and so forth. I think really looking deep into my life at that time it was obviously this is how I related to my perception of reality... certain portions of time were I was intensely in the moment and focused on reality with the rest of the time being in my head trying to connect the dots. That time is an especially good time to reflect on also because I remember it being a particularly self-awakened time and not one of those times I spent drudging through the day to day. In general that aspect has only grown in my perception, occasionally I get a pulse of something but mostly I just pound away at the superficial details, my life currently is like waiting at an airport terminal.
Anyways the intuitive aspect and the thinking aspect are rather obvious to me. If I were an ST or NF beta's would not be a bad guess but I mostly relate to NT and alpha NT. Finally my emphasis on the Ne-aspect over taking the formalized logic too seriously makes me relate to Ne more than Ti. I mean I make my living as an analyst and I got a physics/aerospace degree.
Also most of those pictures are when I was around 20, some a little older. That was midway through college... and most are from family vacations, as I don't really do the whole facebook/myspace snap a picture of myself everytime I have a beer in my hand at some social function thing.
I should take a picture more recently as I'm gaining on 25 yrs old, I'm basically just a little younger than dj.
