seems like i have a million of these. things i have to do but donīt want to do. for example, like spend 1500 coming to costa rica for my brotherīs wedding. my brother who i get maybe a yearly email from, or maybe see once a year. bah.
i was thinking about how i have to spend my time and itīs almost 95 percent have to. probably common for my age where you have maximum responsibility. itīs a tough stage for sure.
but anyway, i was thinking it is Se role related. donīt wanna but you have to. thoughts?

