I guess I'm ILI after all
...or at least at this very moment.
As you may know, I always wasn't really sure if I'm LII or ILI. I also considered ILE for a while, but I discarded that thought because I can't really think of myself being extrovert. When I came here I've typed myself as ILI, but in the process of learning about Socionics, I had doubts about that. Later I thought I've too readily accepted :Fe: as my Polr. Suddenly, :Ne: also appeared to be a function which is important to me (it still does, though). That's how I came to the idea of LII as my type. But now, my perspective has changed again.
While I could never really identify with the Alpha group behaviour, there were other things which appeared to be correct. So I started to read the descriptions very exactly instead of just skimming it. I tried to understand every word of it. And I found surprisingly much in the ILI description on Wikisocion which seems to fit. Here are some examples:
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[Ni] ILIs may even have novelistic tendencies with the ability to create intricate plots, characters and places.
[Si] ILIs are often hesitant or resistant towards lifestyle changes that threaten the commodiously constructed surroundings that they create for themselves.
[Fe] ILIs deeply dislike being asked or coerced to express their emotions.
ILIs are typically not social creatures. Some do not understand the importance of social connections and choose to ignore the area of emotional involvement with others altogether, instead delving into virtual reality, mystical introspection, or private study.
ILIs tend to be nervous about interacting with other people due to lack of confidence in their social abilities, and often feel that they are not socially respected.
Only with a small number of people whom the ILI trusts deeply does the ILI let down his emotional guard. To these people, the ILI can be surprisingly sincere and kind. Nonetheless, the ILI will be little more than an acquaintance to the mass of people that the ILI does not completely trust.
[Se] ILIs are often characterized by their inertia. If left to their own devices, they may choose to do relatively little to interact with the outside world. When they do interact, they often find their activities empty and unsatisfying. To ILIs, life is often characterized by periods of stimulation. True stimulation is often spontaneous, and the intervals between periods of stimulation are often characterized by tedium, inertia, and apathy. ILIs are not very adept at finding new areas of interest, and may seek to continue to reproduce past experiences instead of moving on to new things. In order to break out of this cycle, ILIs require an active, external, spontaneous stimulus. This spontaneity allows the ILI to discover new experiences and escape from the confines of his own mind.
[Fi] ILIs deeply value feelings of attachment to those whom engage them in a deep and lasting emotional kinship. They have a hard time establishing these sentiments as they are naturally disinterested in most people, who seem outwardly unremarkable or have nothing in common with them. But when an ILI has developed deep interpersonal bonds, he makes an effort to hold on to them. ILIs are almost always deeply unconfident about their social abilities and, consequently, they rarely speak of their most valued relationships with others to common outsiders that they consider superficial acquaintances.
In general, ILIs are fundamentally good-natured and conscionable people who may place a great deal of importance on ethical principles. In fact, ILIs have a very strong sense of good will and loyalty towards others if they find the others to be similarly reasonable, trustworthy individuals.
ILIs seeking emotional ties with individuals may find themselves forced to take the initiative with others, a task for which even friendly ILIs are ill-equipped. Even when ILIs do take some initiative, they rarely succeed at reaching a depth of emotional connection that truly satisfies them.
The bolded part was fact that caught my attention. Mainly because a LII would react in the exact opposite way in this matter. If I think back I can remember two people who wanted me to open up to others. But they did it in a very intrusive way, they somewhat urged me to become more social and all that. I just thought "Wtf, can't you just leave me alone and mind your own business?!" Well, and that made me think again. And I found these other facts which are correct. These are just examples, I could list more. There are also some things I don't fully agree with, but that's natural. I'm saying this now, maybe I'll change my mind later. You all know that. :wink:
But, if I recall correctly, the most of you typed me ILI in my last thread anyway, so I agree with you.
So yeah. Back at camp Gamma.