I considered 9 as my core for the longest time, but with getting quite a few feedback on sounding like a 5 core, as well as finding 5 relatable to myself and always having a doubt between 9 and 5, I decided to question it further. And So/Sx sounds pretty possible actually? I normally would say that sx actually what I suck at, but I kind of have it in a weird way? I get locked on to one person at a time and make them main priority, but there isn't any sexual or romantic feeling towards them, if that makes sense? I tend to keep a pretty welcoming image to others and don't really like making anyone sad, but at the same time, that one person is the only one truly care about if I would have to be honest. Which, often makes me feel guilty as I feel like I am acting fake towards many people, but at the same time I don't really bite my tongue if something actually sounds off. I would say 5 or 9 so/sx most likely, then?
Most likely. I don't think it is core 6 enough of a thing but still, there is a lot more 6 influence than 5.
Hm... I actually do consider 7 as a possibility as well, there certainly is a 7-5 5-7 line connection I feel, only question would be where I fall on it. Then again... Hm. It might be growth towards 5 then? I used to abandon any friendship when things would get pretty deep and like, there would be no juice left and I would just hop to another with another persona? I didn't think it would be 7 as there is often more of existential dread underneath, but again, that's 7s theme, isn't it? Trying to run away from bad feelings. I think I kind of learned to letting myself live them more then? In either case, it is 7w6 or 5w6 I suppose? It also might be what @
Cassandra picked as more 9-core ish vibe? I don't have a view of everything eternally going to be fine but I still find myself automatically faking a cheerful persona.
Heck, my favourite songs are actually pretty depressive and existential question filled songs which have a pretty upbeat tune and in Japanese so I can sing it around and seem like I am actually happy while lyrics themselves would be expressing meaningless?
Edit: Also, the 1-perfectionism expected from self under pressure is very much a real thing I feel? It might be 7 core, which could explain the 9-5 dilemma I have?