Hi everybody.
I've come back here to update my type. No, this time it isn't a mistype or just a random consideration. The point is: I'm not the same person I was a year ago, when LII used to be the perfect choice for my personality type. Events, circumstances, people, places and emotions have had an enormous impact on my person, stimulating the "real myself" to slowly but intensely come out of the shell. And the "real myself", guess what, is actually closer to ILI.
I'm listing the main reason for this major change:
- Irrational > Rational - Do you remember the dutiful, hard working and self-controlled spirit I told you to have last year? Forget about it. I've been experiencing a dramatical decrease of this capabilities. I discovered that my behaviour was just an adaptation to the world around me. Actually, I'm a very hard procrastinator, I tend not to end what I start and willpower is not walking besides me anymore. By the way, I still manage to get things done thanks to improvisation, good memory and ability to focus on tasks. My motto now is, more than ever: "minimum effort, maximum results".
- The power of Ni - The increasing use of this function during my day is just mind blowing. I already told you that I'm obsessed with dates, can keep the track of time and so on. But now I consciously use this function for literally anything in my life. See, it was thanks to Ni and its huge introspective tendency that I noticed not to be a LII anymore. I'm always with the head in the clouds, distracted, thinking about the past and trying to celebrate it. I've associated every month of this period with a particular event, I've created a playlist of songs each one linked to a day, a feeling or a sensation. It feels like my inner world is now greater than it used to be. I can't really explain it because it's impossible. But, believe me, it's one of the most satisfying feelings I've experienced in my entire life so far.
- Ni vs Ne - Strongly linked to the second point, I discovered how I focus more on the "depth" of something than on its "breadth" possibly in every matter of my life. Music for example: my friends tend to listen a lot of random artists, but not to focus on a single one as much as I do. In fact the only band I've been listening in the past 9 months is Radiohead. And this works with everything.
- Fi Hidden Agenda - This was definitely the most striking change in my personality. A year ago I was alone, no strong personal relationships, just some superficial bonds. Now I'm seriously engaged into a few of them and it feels SO satisfying. I didn't know it, but it's all I need to feel complete. I never speak of this with my friends because I feel very embarrassed to share such a deep care for them, but I'd like to. In fact now I don't treat people equally anymore. I obviously have favourites and the LII's "impersonality" has gone. Also, my ex-Fi Role wall has finally crumbled down, causing me to be way more sincere and straightforward but also a bit arrogant. But I don't care. If it is the real me, let it just come out then.
- Fe PoLR - The unavoidable truth. I always tried to make this piece fit in the jigsaw, but nothing: I'm a Fe PoLR. All those "avoided" kisses, hugs, contacts and my apathetic attitude with people just point at that. And since I believe I'm the rational subtype, I feel like I need more Fi than Se and it completely makes sense.
In a nutshell, I can't be a LII. Also if I try to observe myself from the outside: I'm so much "Critic", people always get this vibe. And @
Chae was right from the beginning...