Beta's do you ever feel like you are too intense and most other people are too dull, well not dull, just not intense enough?
God this sounds like such a elitist bullshit haha. But I always feel so intense, and I feel I have to pull back and hold it inside when I am with most people. I have to dull myself and become more mellow because most people just can't handle it.
It's so aggrivating. It feels so suffocating. Like you just want to be free but you can't let it out because you feel like it could destroy everything. It's such a blast when you meet someone you can let loose with, someone who can meet your intensity, it's such a rush, such a fucking release.
This is why I hate it when people tell me I am one of there best friends, I know it sounds dumb, but it sort of hurts in a way haha, when they say that because it feels like they don't know who I am and so I let loose to see if they can handle it and most of the time they can't, they have no fucking idea what's going on.
Sound it's like you are stuck. Caged up. You just can't be what you are, it doesn't feel right or safe with most people.
Does anyone feel this way? Beta's are pretty intense compared to everyone else.