Originally Posted by
Hela
Hey there, thanks for the welcome.
I definitely have a lot of 3-ish tendencies, to the point where I strongly considered 3w4 core when I first got into all this. But when I think about my core motivations, while there's a huge drive to excel, it's all for my own sake. By that, I don't mean that I don't care about others. I mean that the bar I'm testing myself against, is myself. The reason I'm pushing myself is partly to learn new skills that help me maintain my control over my own life, partly the sheer thrill of winning. How it looks to others doesn't really factor in.
So, for me it's less about walking in the room and being the boss, just throwing power around. I don't really do that. While I have a serious resting bitchface, I don't even come off all that hard-edged. My fashion sense is more preppy than thrift store. But, if there's one thing I'm not lacking, it's personal drive. If I actually know the workings of something, it's not self-confidence either.