Hello, my name is June and I'm a daydreamer...
I like flipping a coin to decide wether or not I should do something while I'm in doubt, wich I did myself just before starting this thread. I consider myself a person who aims higher but doesn't achieve much effectiveness in coming into practice, I'm not sure if that is an indicative of strong Ne or weak Te. I tend imagine multiple scenarios in my mind to frame the future, but it seems that I'm actually stuck in the present and have little or no influence on the status of things. My feeling towards life, is like young future King David with a heavy an ill-fitting armor ready to find a giant with only a slingshot on my hand. I consider myself a rather shy person, generally not sociable but that can be sometimes outgoing and has an on-off kind of ability of creating certain moods or exerting emotional influence, but I have little care for relationships. Sometimes I feel pleasure on exerting this influence, specially on strangers... and I also like making people slightly uncomfortable sometimes. I like to say I love being "best friends" with strangers because you can't really have those obligations that some friends request you to have. I've been taunted by a secret society member before, wich is one of my dreams... to become part of a secret society, but I never talked to this man after that... because I just dropped off college for being a cavalier against ideology. It is like I can't see the point on relationship building, I think I'm rather weak at constructing revedlationships and maintaining them on the long term, but I justify that on the basis I don't really like what most people of my country like or thing as they do, they're generally stupid and narrowminded. People from other countries, such as US seem to really pay attention to what you're saying, while in my society people are just waiting for their turn to talk and they avoid blindessly any cause of emotional distress or unrest. College started like that, I caused a lot of controversy, wich divided people... some admired me for holding up strong opinions, some hated me for being controversial. Interestingly enough, while I could talk well and put up some hot topics to break the academic ice, I couldn't just go up there and present a paper, you know, talk in public. I actually liked gathering respect from people in a society where it is almost a crime to just go off the academic schedule, wich is stiff, ideologically driven and wich makes you a functional illiterate. Some part of me would like to be a hippie, some part of me would like to be a bohemian, some part would like to be a bussinessman or a political leader. I consider myself, in Big 5, high in openness and also high in neuroticism. I'm not sure if someone will get interested, but if someone is, I hope it helps.