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handjob I'm never motivated by boredom. It's usually through feeling incomplete in some way. I get motivated when I think of new career goals, new ways to support my image as a whole. I actually am rarely bored, I think that's a constant issue. I'm not bored, I'm usually overwhelmed by how much is always going on around me. I can never keep up with all of it. I get truly excited for things when I think of something that I can get inspired by that gives me a pathway for a future.
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do enjoy pushing people. I actually really enjoy it. But it's always serious, it's to help others reach their goals. It's force but out of love. I don't do it in a cruel way unless I feel like I have to to prove a point or to make someone learn something. I do test limits, I've always been rebellious and I do like to push boundaries of things. But I'm not into risk taking because I think I have VERY developed Ni and usually stay away from anything that could potentially get me into danger.
I'm very into clothes but I use it as a form of expression, it is governed by Fi. I dress based on what I like, not what is necessarily popular. But how I dress does affect me drastically. To the mysterious stuff: yes yes yes, I look at everything and try to get deeper with it. People often think I'm dry because of it, and it's probably true.
In what way do you mean stern? I lose trust easily if that's what you mean. I have a huuuuuuge mental barrier between me and almost everyone, but if someone pushes past that they're getting a completely different human. If you betray that trust, I will leave for good. I am extremely guarded in the first place, so to even be a close friend is not easy (I'm not the easiest person to spend tons of time with). I don't use friendships any type of way, I think that if someone thinks I'm worth having in their life they will show that. I don't fight for anyone's attention, if I feel unwanted I will leave.
I value peace but not a crazy amount. I can put up with a ton of shit. I value self improvement but in the sense that I want to build myself up. I treat who I am as a brand in a sense. Don't care much about climbing up the social latter, I used to when I was younger though. If I want to improve myself I'll do it entirely for my own reasons. For instance, I bought a tattoo kit last year and quickly learned how to use the tattoo guns and started working on fake skin. I enjoyed it but once I realized that it required me putting it over other things at that time I dropped it.
I'm always saving my energy for something else.