What is beauty? What is love?
I know this is a trite expression but beauty really is in the eye of the beholder. There is no definition or standard of beauty. You can find beauty is anything. You find something beautiful when it evokes a profound feeling within you. However, when I think of conventional or mainstream beauty, I think of cheesy and fluffy shit like wedding gowns, birthday cakes and bright and shiny ornaments. Love, again, is hard to put into words, to describe. I feel like I know what love is but attempting to describe it would diminish its meaning to me, it won't really convey what I think of love.
What are your most important values?
I have no values. Or at least, I don't have this code of ethics I reference. I don't categorize my morals and ethics. I just do what I feel is right. My values emerge in situations where they are needed. Really, I would say if I have values, my main value is to stay true to who I am and do what I feel should be done.
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I'm not religious and I have never been religious. I recognize myself as an atheist because I choose not to believe in God, not because of science, although it is a factor. I choose not to believe in God because I don't like the whole idea of a higher power and religion. I don't like the idea of seeking an external authority to base your moral foundation in, I don't like the idea of performing meaningless and potentially harmful rituals to appeal to something you don't even know exists, I don't like the idea that you as a human being are helpless, that you need the guidance of God to realize your worth or discover meaning in life, I don't like the idea that there is this grand design for your life and that your choices are secondary in importance. It's all quite abhorrent to me.
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
War is an unfortunate thing. Bystanders. Collateral damage. Forced participation. Massacres. All because of a small percentage of people who can't control their ego.
On the other hand, it's kind of fascinating to scrutinize it as a game. I loved the instances in A Song Of Ice And Fire where you would see a character preparing for war. Mulling over strategies. Power dynamics. Gathering resources. All of that stuff. Power is the ability to do whatever you want and obliterate your obstacles. Power is having the resources to act on your will.
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
I don't really know. There are no particular topics that come to mind. Come to think of it, my longest conversations would consist of online arguments. I love arguing. It could be considered a kind of war, except that your words are your weapons and your opponent's ego is the blood. My interests.... I don't know how to answer this question. My interests are not stable.
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Somewhat, I guess. I don't particularly care about my body from a medical perspective but I like maintaining it, a superficial explanation may be that I just want to attract the opposite sex. That is a factor but for the most part, I like to think of my body as a machine or a model and the idea of maintaining it appeals to me. An efficient machine.
What do you think of daily chores?
Don't like them. I'll wash the utensils if they're dirty. Don't know why this has to be some kind of activity.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
I'll get back to you on that after I consult my memory.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
Anywhere as long as I'm in my element and feeling good, surrounded by things I value.
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
Not really a weakness, but people criticize my reticence and what they perceive to be hostility in social situations. I don't adapt to the social atmosphere and do my own thing, I'm very asocial and I'm always giving off an aloof vibe. Lol, I can imagine myself being surrounded by a dark aura. This rubs people off the wrong way, I guess. I don't participate in the group activities, I don't smile for the family photograph sessions, I just don't play along. People have also seen my obstinacy as my weakness. My reluctance to change. I can become an impenetrable fortress at times. I don't budge when someone tells me to do something I don't want, especially if I have my own plans and intentions. I can even become hostile. I confess I feel like a boulder on such occasions.
Er... nothing, really.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Well, people tell me I'm intelligent or wise but they don't really specify why they think so.
Not being a narcissist, but I just generally like being me.
In what areas of your life would you like help?
Managing time, organizing my life, being less impulsive and less focused on immediate gratification, thinking ahead and orienting my life around a plan.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
Yes, I might be stuck in a rut currently. Don't care what the causes are. It's basically a seemingly endless circus of monotony and pedestrianization. No particular reaction, to be honest. I'm pretty passive.
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
No particular qualities. I just know whether I like or dislike someone. There are no set qualities.
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
Sex is cool.
Not sure, maybe someone who helps me get my shit together. Someone who brings organization into my life and clears up all the mess and rubbish in my mind.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
Don't interfere too much in his development. Let him be his own man and discover life on his own terms. Recognize that he is capable of making decisions on his own, which I think a lot of parents forget or ignore. All the same, look out for potentially negative qualities.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Depends on my mood. I've just decided that it's futile to argue with someone over different beliefs because people don't really want to change so spontaneously, especially when it's someone else telling them to do so, which I can understand.
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
I don't care enough about society to answer this. I see people as people.
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
Lol, choose my friends? I "choose" friends based on how I feel about them. It's just a feeling. I don't look for attributes or qualities.
How do you behave around strangers?
Like a stranger.