Wondering if I could be an ESI-Se instead. What do you infer from the following?
One thing about myself I've noticed is the effort I make into formulating plans and schedules. I feel comfortable when I do this. When I wake up and know what I'm going to do throughout the day. Basically, I idealize efficiency. But I never really follow the very plans and schedules I make for myself. I feel great when I get shit done and accomplish stuff, when I feel like I have my life all figured out. Ultimately, I just do what gives me the most enjoyment and go with the flow, no matter how many plans I make. I remember on the last day of summer vacations, I was making an extremely detailed schedule because I wanted to improve my academic performance. I was particularly enthusiastic because of the whole "new beginning" thing. The next day, I "wasted" the whole day watching videos on YouTube. I just don't consider it a waste of time because I'm having fun. In life, I should either be having fun or doing something productive.
How do you differentiate Ti role and Ne role? Or Ne polr and Ti polr?When I talked about bad outcomes, I was basically referring to how if I put off doing something, at the last hour it can come back to bite me. For example, preparing for an exam. In the morning, I don't feel like studying so I decide to study in the afternoon. In the afternoon, I try to convince myself that it won't harm to study, say, after lunch or something. After lunch, I persuade myself that it would be sufficient for me to study for only two hours or so. And so on. By the time it's time for me to sleep, I'm freaking out and cursing myself. That's the bad outcome. My tendency to prioritize the enjoyment of the immediate present jeopardizes my future. It's characteristic of me to impulsively do something which I eventually regret.
I've observed that if I'm on a trip with my family, I want to know every detail of what it is we're going to do. I don't like surprises and unexpected events. I want to know exactly what it is I'm going to expect. I don't pursue new experience for the sake of it. I'm not going to try something just to see if I like it. I get anxious when I'm told to improvise or suddenly do something on the spot. I hate uncertainty. I've noticed that I tend to dread situations I have no experience in, even if it's as simple as visiting some place. If I ask someone a question, I want him to answer in certain or specific terms.