I usually only half-engage. It's a habit I learned a long time ago. I feel like if I fully engage with people I will overload them. And so I kind of side-step and act indirectly a little.
Generally I prefer to "match" energy levels with other people. And half-engaging is one way to do that easier.
I sort of hide. But I mean, most people do. I try to be open, and honest, and not lie or misrepresent myself or anything normally. But I must admit that being open is kind of hard for me, let alone to share with others
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For better or for worse I used to kind of have trouble containing myself at times. And I can kind of leak out
I'm probably better at containing myself now.
I think people usually see me, I can be dismissed, but people usually notice me. And if someone doesn't, I think it's with them not I...
Just the other day I was eating with a friend, who wanted to be boring and have what they usually have, and I humoured the idea of trying something different, before saying that I usually just have the same thing. And when the waiter came to take order, they already guessed what I wanted
But that seems to be common occurrence for me and not something I necessarily like. People assume because I am usually consistent, that I'll always keep wanting to act the same, but I prefer to consciously decide again and again to do the same thing - and be ready for change at any moment -
I suppose there is different ways to take "angry at not being seen". I think to me, I am more likely to be angry at being seen as only a part of me, rather than deeper.. ?
Anyway, for whatever reason people tend to remember me more than I remembe them. Enough so that I don't really want to draw attention to myself most of the time.