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fatal mistake
00:51 -- "I dont know if I can get this out very well"
do you have trouble speaking about abstract theoretical concepts such as socionics?
I do, because multiple different interpretations are always competing for dominance and I like to keep whatever I say consistent between itself, so I kind of have to gauge "ok, "who am I" today, aka what do I care about today, to what degree can I express this using this interpretation of socionics, since I don't have someone asking me questions I'm going to have to think about my audience, and I am not really good at that" etc.
1:02 - 1:04 -- "ESE"
your voice trembles a bit. are you nervous?
I watched it again, and I'm not sure, but I don't think I was nervous. I don't guess this is relevant to my type anyway, besides general impressions. The thought of posting a video on a public forum makes me nervous though, yes.
1:07 - 1:11 -- "well they're quasi-identical types, so they'll appear similar to onlookers"
evidence for Evolutionary > Involutionary?
Maybe, I waffle between saying "A person I typed as this acted this way, that must mean that others act this way" and "a person acted differently than I expected, that must mean my assessment of them was incorrect." I try to take into account the amount of evidence, but what is new always feels more relevant than what I've already done, even though I know that's not true. So when I choose between these statements it always feels arbitrary, especially when you have a sample size so low of people(that are categorized into the same type) you can actually say these things about on a day to day basis.
3:24 - 3:27 -- "I dont know, I have a bad personal understanding of that"
the polr is said to be understood in a personal and idiosyncratic way
Part of what informed my choice of words there.
7:24 - 7:26 -- "I dont know why that took me so long to say"
could it be because you were trying to engage a weak function?
yes, I was trying to think of more information that would inform a better summation, but came up with little during that pause. Could be because I was searching my own Fe and found jack shit. But feeling is one of the harder functions to get an explicit language about anyway, I think.
9:20 - 9:23 -- "so it becomes hard to tell who's Fe and who's not"
that's because almost everyone is Fe
Based on the fact that only 4 types have id Fe, and thus everyone else either has it conscious or valued? Or based on polls or estimates of Fe valuing types?
10:04 - 10:19 "but because of something... you know something loud or something older maybe" (not sure what exactly you said)
it takes awhile for thoughts from the polr to come bubbling up. lots of uhms, pauses, and I-dont-knows.
This was purely based on hearsay, I wasn't accessing any part of myself that identifies with that. I tend to shy away from being noticed unless there aren't any huge consequences for what I'm planning on doing. And it was bolder, not older.
11:02 - 11:04 -- "which leads me to another thought I've been having"
more evidence for Evolution > Involution?
You could argue that these thoughts were sort of tangential. One was about escapism and the other was about general imagination/subjectivity, they share a common attribute, but no obvious(at least to me at the time) deductive link, so it was more involutionary than evolutionary.
17:44 - 17:46 -- "I'm good at abstraction, bad at thinking"
what do you mean?This is really hard for me to explain without appealing to examples. I'm good at looking at multiple different instances of something and abstracting backwards, like for instance if you're familiar with programming, I can look at how instances of classes are used and infer the class and its rules. For example, I am a natural at language because I can hear or look at a sentence, and all the little ins and outs get unconsciously put into my brain, quicker than others. Same with ideas, I can take the general idea of an idea and quickly apply it to other places.
Being bad at thinking: I suck at math, physics, anything that requires this sort of thinking. I think you might be able to say that unless I am guaranteed there is a meaning to what I'm looking at, I won't feel confident in my ability to pull it out. I cannot understand if it's junk or not. I can provide my own meaning, and then apply my brain to things like math, because I will come at it from a perspective of "here is the goal, I need to find my tools." Then I get a general sense of what my tools look like and I may rely on math or some mathematical concept to detail everything out for me. But I cannot do this within math, physics, universal sciences, because I feel that the goal(maybe the natural end of the process) is not obvious to me, and I don't feel comfortable making universal claims.
So you could say my abstraction makes me resourceful and good at recognizing what I need to build up an idea, but bad at building the tools myself, unless they are not already naturally present in my mindset.
I dont think a LII would struggle to generate possibilities.
basically, I think you might be Ti-LSI.