What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty is a trait or set of traits that are desirable or ideal and/or simply awake admiration within us.
Love is the place where loyalty, devotion, trust and sincerity meet.
What are your most important values?
Loyalty, independence, professionalism, trustworthiness, dignity, competence, creativity, knowledge, perfectionism, meticulousness, seriousness.
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I'd say I'm more of a spiritual than religious person. I only remember of my beliefs when I'm in a difficult situation mostly, but I hold my beliefs because sometimes it reminds me of who I am or what I want to achieve, and it helps me to put things in perspective.
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
I don't like the idea of innocent people being killed. Militaries save people by killing people, but they're a necessity.
To me, power is a tool that allows the changing of the world in accordance to the desires or visions one has.
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
I've had long philosophical conversations, spiritual and sometimes on morality.
I'm interested in art, philosophy, psychology, science, innovative ideas, design, games. Most of theese things keep my mind interested and busy, they challenge me to think in more depth, that's why I like them.
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
I'm quite curios about health and medicine as a conversation topic. Sometimes I try to set healthy habits for myself, but I cease being consistent after awhile which can be frustrating when I remember or think about it.
I'm probably less focused on my body than most people around me, I most of the time forget about or ignore my bodily needs.
What do you think of daily chores?
I'm perfectly capable of taking care of them, but for the most part I end up procrastinating them in favour of activitites that are more appealing to me. However there are also times when I take care of them right away so I can return to something more important.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
I read alot, but rarely books lately. I usually read articles on particular subjects that interest me.
I like books or movies that present a novel perspective on things, horror and psychological movies . I also like fantasy as long as it's not too absurd and it makes one dream without making the ideas presented clash with reality too fast(if they can make one indulge in absurdity just for the sake of dreaming, that's just as good).
Some of my favourite movies: the Saw series, Inception, V for Vendetta, Insidious, Black Swan, Excision, The Unborn, The Jacket, Transcendence.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Helpless animals, particular people who are helpless in a way and don't deserve what is hapening to them, extreme proof of loyalty, stoicism, trustworthiness, love of someone(not necessarily towards me, it may be a character in a movie or book) really move me.
Extreme anger can make me cry too.
Good jokes, idiocy, and some animals like hamsters, mice or dogs can make me smile.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
At home I think.
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
I don't know, I've been told that I'm arrogant, I take everything too seriously, I should loosen up and have fun, be more sociable, talkative etc. I don't think theese are weaknesses though, they're just negative ways others perceive me.
I dislike that I find it kind of hard to stand for myself and what I think more and that makes me feel a bit cowardish. I dislike that despite the fact I'm quiet and contained most of the time, I'm quite temperamental and I get angry very fast, and extreme anger makes me cry, violent, shaky, lose control etc., wish I was more self-controled. I wish I was more aware of what and how people are, than go by the mental image I build of them and focus so much on how or what they can be.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Seriousness, responsability perhaps.
I like that I'm independent, deep about things, stoic and can be objective.
In what areas of your life would you like help?
I'm quite self-reliant.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
Sometimes I guess. Usually when I can't manage to get through something easily or as easy as I expect, it makes me feel bad about myself. It's discouraging and sometimes I need some time to reinforce and motivate myself.
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like self-sufficient, trustworthy, creative, stoic, kind, ambitios, serious and determined people.
I dislike superficiality, incompetence, stupidity.
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
Romance is beautiful if you meet someone who truly understands you and loves you deeply. Sex is great, but I can't feel sexually atracted to someone if there are no feelings or at least mutual mental understanding.
In a partner I want loyalty, trustworthiness, seriousness, stoicism, competence, sincerity.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
I'd make sure the child is knowledgeable, independent, serious and kind. I wouldn't want the child to depend on others, see or act on things in superficial ways.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Depends how close/important that person is to me and what beliefs we're talking about.
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
I never had more than 1 or 2 friends at a time, I'm unable to connect to most people. I choose to be friends with like-minded people or at least people who have some things in common with me. My friends say I should talk more and be more outgoing, sociable, I'm usually quieter than them unless we have a conversation I'm very interested in, and then I talk very much. As soon as the conversation is over, my enthusiasm is over too and I go back to my usual self. I'm usually very serious but there are times when I get very silly, not for long though. I like jokes and games alot too, but I think I enjoy talking the most, exchanging information, opinions etc.
How do you behave around strangers?
I'm reserved, quiet and have a distant, formal attitude around strangers.