I found this paragraph in an article today (http://www.the16types.info/vbulletin...ions-Fixations), but, more importantly, I learned the word "introjection"!.. It's something I've done my whole life and I'm so glad to find a word for it, since I've always felt like there was something off about me for doing it all the time.Fours use introjection to avoid ordinariness and maintain a self image of being authentic. Positive introjection is an attempt to overcome the feeling of deficiency by seeking value from an idealized experience, work or relationship and internalizing this through the emotional center. This also leads to negative introjection: Fours tend blame themselves for whatever goes wrong in personal relationships. Their experience of loss or abandonment can take form inside as a self-rejecting voice (a negative introject) which leads to pervasive feelings of unworthiness.
I've realized I've been caught in a cycle where I'll imitate people, then I'll feel abnormal, so I'll imitate differently subconsciously to feel normal.
Oh gosh, I'm so glad there's a word for this!!!!!
Could anyone whose e4 reply if they feel like they do a similar thing or if they have any sort of observations about links between identity and e4? Also, is my kind of introjection (where I'll imitate other people to the point where I can no longer see the difference between myself and said person) the introjection they're talking about? The reason I ask is because it doesn't seem like I've ever read this anywhere else in all the articles of enneagram I've seen all over the internet...