so today was the first day of taking online classes to get my bachelors.
i am freaking out.
when i am in a class with other people, i can get a feel for how intelligent they are and how much effort they are putting into their schoolwork and it gives me a barometer. working entirely by myself, i have no barometer, and my default is to give 100% (carefully taking detailed notes, reading every word in the textbook, etc.) and there's just no way i'll be able to do that on top of my other obligations without burning myself out and going crazy. i know i'm smart enough to get good grades without throwing myself entirely into it, ive done it before, but i can't remember how. its been like 10 years now since ive been in school so i'm out of practice. AND i am not so good at processing info when it all comes at me from a fucking SCREEN with no discussion, no variation, not even a fucking textbook i can hold in my hands.
i know some of you do this online school thing. give me tips. console me. hold me.