After studying Socionics for some time now, it's clear to me that I am in need of strong outside opinions. I already did the questionnaire a while back but upon review see very little that I'd change so I figured that I'll try freestyling with some descriptions of myself and specifically of my behavior and appearance. I do not have any means of taking any photos unfortunately and do not have any photos of myself past elementary school so I cannot post anything.
Please help to the best of your abilities and if you need any additional information or clarifications I'll be sure to provide it. I hope I don't go into too much irrelevant details but want to be as specific as possible, so if this bothers anyone, I'll be sure to edit it as best as possible. You also have permission to quickly glance through and not read everything, just as much as you feel is necessary. Thank you ahead of time for any help.
Currently I believe I am a IxTx (LSE also of slight possibility) and also highly doubt that I'm an Alpha if this helps. My Enneagram is either 1w9 or 6w5 I am 9,001% a Melancholic/Choleric personality with zero doubt in my mind to this. While I do not believe in astrology, I am an Aries for anyone who might.
Starting with my appearance: I have a very stern facial expression, with people always seeming to think that I look angry and aggressive all the time no matter how happy and calm I am. I have large, defined eyebrows, high cheek bones, a pronounced jaw, and wear glasses (the look of which I hate). When I smile, it's always a side smirk or wry smile. I never show my teeth when I smile, and usually force myself not to if I'm say laughing for example.
I have a very leisurely gait when I walk and my arms never move independently from my body. They either hang to the side or are on my waist with thumbs pointed behind. I never cross my legs when I sit and am usually either hunched over or leaning backwards with my hands between my lap and with my legs spread wide apart.
I have the habit of pacing back and forth when I think and I pretty much never gesticulate, even if angry and yelling.
Random facts about myself : I'm generally a highly future and goal orientated person who rarely lives in the present. Such as when I am studying for example. I love military history and language learning, but hate going through the process of learning itself. I like getting straight to the knowing aspect, and the longer it takes to grasp something, the most annoyed with it I become. Even when I'm doing something casual like reading a book, playing video games, or fishing, there's always the end goal in mind, such as finishing the chapters, completing the levels, and catching the fish, and usually get more annoyed with the activity the longer it takes to reach the goal. So it's safe to say that I have no patience. Since I highly enjoy reaching goals, I absolutely despise problems and problem solving. I love when things are efficient and get highly aggravated when there's any sort of setback to it and like to get through any setback as fast as I can.
I take relationships of all kinds from family to friends as well highly seriously and would never break off one unless strongly betrayed and would also never engage in a light relationship or casual sex. I either take things completely seriously or won't bother with it at all. I'm can act highly paternal to friends and family and also have strong ambitions to starting a family some day soon. I've had such desires and ambitions ever since I can remember, even as a young teenager, though unfortunately none of my partners have felt the same way.
I have deeply held personal values and can get rather aggressive with them when I feel that they are being violated. I hesitate to debate on something unless I'm absolutely certain of my being correct and can argue for weeks (and have done so several times) on end rather then find a compromise on something if I know I'm right. Most arguments tend to be either on history or geopolitics, but if the argument is based on direct personal issues (such as work) or something overly emotional, I'd try to avoid it.
I have a really irrational behavior of supporting the underdog in any event, especially in arguments, solely because they are the underdog and not much reason else. Really stupid but can never help myself from doing so.
I'm a very quiet and taciturn person, and quickly get annoyed if a conversation isn't on something I find to be important or interesting. I rarely ever zone out or get lost in thought no matter how quiet or deep in thought I am, always paying complete attention to what is going on around me.
My social skills are none existent and I find it impossible to read cultural behavior and to adjust to them, almost to an autistic level (no idea if I'm autistic or have any personality disorders since I never got tested for any). I can be very suspicious of peoples intentions and find it hard to relate to groups as a whole.
I cannot tolerate discomfort of any kind at all. If I am so much as stuck being too hot and sweaty for long, my mind will be intensively focused on the discomfort and will bug me to no end. Being uncomfortable will cause extreme complaining and whining from me as well, with me doing so in order to express my strong emotions I have towards it.
When I was younger I dreamed of either being an Archaeologist or Curator but currently study Computer Science today as it seems far more practical and convenient, with so much more options in terms of specific work.
Lastly I love to play solo sports such as Olympic Lifting and Martial Arts, and to watch team sports such as Rugby (despite rarely keeping up to events). I can spend hours in activity without noticing the passage of time and can also spend hours reading up on the activities for fun.
Sorry for any typos and the lack of semicolons.