well shit, not even sure where to begin
I never know how to find myself in a description of a socionics type, although there are certain things I disagree with upon seeing them. Whether I do these things anyway is a question I'm probably not equipped to answer.
I can list some decisions I've made when I've actually had to put my foot down and assert myself:
-Compliance- I'm generally amenable, but resentful, of my bosses telling me I need to do something differently, if it's a logical thing. If it's an ethical thing, I leave my ego, start nodding my head and instantly forget, because I'm never going to be able to carry out customer service in the typical way they want me to do it- cheerful, happy, overly interested in their problems.
-At the same time, I help people at my job, as long as we are just talking about solving their problems and not the underlying life/emotional situation that caused them to seek help in the first place. I will hear their concerns and recommend the best solution, then end of story, my compassion ends at this point.
-I help people with random problems even if they are completely out of the way, I only shut people out if I'm overly stressed.
-Although I have problems with social interaction in general, concerning getting to know unfamiliar people and adapting to unfamiliar social situations, I can be overly familiar with people I know and it has become a habit for me to "know" people by projecting them into potential situations and testing their response, all completely in my head. Then the next time I interact with them, I actually know them better, and I feel more comfortable and able to express myself.
-How I express myself around people I know well is one of cynical derision while maintaining friendliness and humor. I try to make jokes out of their mistakes and my own mistakes, in other words, even though I orient towards the negative, I turn it into a point of humor and lightness.
-People who rely solely on their authority rather than their flexible humanity and are inflexible to mistakes cause me stress.
-I am more interested in "intellectual" things than most people I know, but still pretty disinterested in creating a theory out of thin air, or even actively thinking about things. The correct things pop into my head, and I trust them until they are proved wrong in discussion, by discovering a contradictory fact, or the next, more correct thing that pops into my head.
-I have always been seen as "the smart one" wherever I go, even though when I look at myself, I see plenty of wisdom, plenty of capability to see all sides of a situations and to predict the logic behind any argument or belief, but a complete fail when it comes to understanding the actual, thick, full-of-life process of developing a theory. There are too many loose ends, too many axioms to cover with exceptions, that any theory to be correct, must encapsulate the entire universe of its exceptions...basically turning it into nihilistic muck, which I am fully familiar with.
-I simply ignore the practicalities of life....I would rather sit at home than go out and interact with people for the purpose of advancing myself in an industry. To me, my advancement anywhere should come through my natural talents and honest interactions with others, rather than any conscious marketing or presenting the truth in a dishonest way.
-I have made a big deal about the last point in my life. I refuse to cleave to the standards of the job search, and this hurts me tremendously. The only time you will get an honest businessman is when you have a businessman that doesn't need you, and if you aren't the perfect candidate in today's economy, a liar candidate will outdo you any day, because to them it is a performance, and not a part of the natural order.
There's a lot I could write about myself, and a lot of contradictory things. In general, I'm a person who has many thoughts, and does not particularly pay attention to "enclosing" logic, or logic that nails things down into one final conclusion, because too often as soon as you do this, you can go straight down the rabbit hole with exceptions, so I don't waste my time. I try to get an intuitive feel of life, and this has many, many downfalls.
There should be some things you'd like to ask me to figure out my type, so go ahead and type them out.