Awakening as a child. Seeing the world with wonder. Seeing my friends with interest. My mind opening to the world, piece by piece. Games, childhood, mystery, life’s mystery. Fears, pains, worries, hopes, dream, laughter, shyness. That special friend. Sharing. A new beginning. The first inkling of reality. Disillusionments.
The sweet goodbyes. From a moment, from each other, from people over the years.
The path I must choose. Learning that I must choose it again and again, over and over. Maybe its not always what I envisioned, this is where I stand non the less.
Embarking on the journey. Moving away, stepping into an adventure, even just a new road, new sites, (6:34) remember what I left behind, and those I left behind.
This is when the mission starts. The job interview; the meeting; the task at hand, all are missions to an IEI. I am ready the time is now. I have all that I need. Everything is right. Now I am on the journey.
The battle. The effort. The fallbacks, the suffering I must endure. The striving. The disappointment. The Reality. The schedule. The grind. The commute. The challenge. The uphill. The fear. The push –through. The completion.
The goal, the dream, the years are seen now from a different vantage point. Did things work? Was it worth it? Reflection. Yes, AND no. There’s the voice again, showing me what I have learned. Older now. The melody that was the dream of youth, spent, spread thin like butter on toast. BUT, still dreaming. Still holding that voice inside me that says, everything is will be possible. The world is still magic. And I am stronger now, more sure of myself. Doubts, worries still harbor in my mind: I know that it can be faced. There is much pain in the world, in my life as well. Meeting a friend, whom you can share this private self too. The connections from here to now.
Sublime suffering. BUT, all things pass. All grief is left for tomorrow. Even though the footprints are tracks in my mind. Humanity has committed all acts imaginable, people commit in their error.
Facing my own failures.
After the storm. All voices, vulnerable, yet strong. I emerge like a phoenix. Even in this ordinary life, there can be found greatness. The mystery that permeates all of life. Grace. Our lives are holy, to see, to experience, this is our propose. I KNOW, I understand now.
The journey recommences. Higher and higher, A little older, a little greyer. I choose the sky. My voice lifted into the blithe air. Yes I will face difficulties (18:26), but I know I can face them and not only face them, I can and will succeed. Accomplishment. Satisfaction. Majestic.
All forms have been seen through. And yet, life keeps going on……