I am new here, and some words are new for me too. For exemple IEI, I see it many times, need to search what is it exactly...I only know that I am INFP.
I was wondering if anyone experienced a Burnout due to work environment ? I just get out from a burnout, and it has been very difficult for me. I still have consequences. I never thought it could happen, and actually I discovered this word thanks to my doctor who followed me during all the process. Very kind.
To tell the story:
Since my childhood I wanted to be a commercial pilot. It was my dream. For me it was flying and being in a freedom environment. So I passed all my licences and ratings, no problems. I was very good student. Then I could become instructor which was my best time.
I started flying at 15 y/o. and got my first job in an airline in asia at 27 y/o. A long path with obstacle.
I wanted to live adventure, see the world and girls, do parties. etc... When I was teenager I never went out with friends, I only worked so hard. I was thinking if I work hard, I will have great lifestyle. Then I discovered the truth. The reality of the job in asia. No freedom, only rules and procedures, rules, procedures, rules procedures...Far from my family, I started flying for a low cost airlines, with strict schedule (but irregular), short sleeps... I was still under supervised so I had to study harder.
The lifestyle was so fast for me, I lived in big city, with high noises, (even during nights). I could not sleep properly. I drunk a lot too.... I did parties, I had fun (I thought I had fun) and drunk a lot. IIt's like I was living all what I could not live when I was younger. I was taking revenge. It looked like adolescent crisis.
Days after days, I was angry and felt a very high stress. For exemple, when I was OFF (schedule) , I was very relieved. But when I had to log in to check my schedule and I was ON, I was nearly crying and felt very stressed. At this moment I started to analyse myself. How come, as a passionate like me, could be happy to be OFF ? Something was wrong in my mind...
One night, all the things came....I could not sleep, and got asthma, and stomach pain. I was suddenly scared to go out.... I had to go to medical center, but I was terrified to go out alone. I was scared of my mobile phone too. Even today I dislike my phone..
Fortunately I called my family who helped me via skype and tried to forced me.
Then I had 15 days sick leave. Long holidays were coming...15 days by 15 days. and then..months after months.
I immediately came back to Europe and had to be cured. I saw a therapist, and doctors.
Then, after a few months, when I was better, I went to a center for unemployed persons. They helped us to come back in the social life. I took many tests and discovered for the first time, INFP. It meant nothing at first but after reading informations, I am not surprised at all. But it's like I ignored myself for many years.
It seems that commercial pilot is not the best career for a type like us.
Of course it could have some exceptions, and personnally, I always thought that psychology things are not 100% sure. But in my case, I was quite convinced indeed.
Today I feel lost a bit. I have to find a new career for me. I guess it will be in the paramedical, but I am afraid that I am unstable. I feel interested in many things and get bored easily :/
If one day I want to build a family (my wish) I know that I have to focus on a stable career at least.
Anyway, just to share with you my story and was wondering how many persons are in this kind of situation.
Thank you for reading