Member Questionnaire 1 (Aylen)What is beauty? What is love?
What are your most important values?
Beauty is a subjective experience of an instant attraction to people, places, and things. Something that has touched me on a deep level and pleases me.
Love is unconditional acceptance of people, places and things.
Freedom, self expression, integration, respect and acceptance. *I want to add concision but not always
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
Not really but I am drawn to the Tao Te Ching (The Way)
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
It's a game of strategy carried out by willing participants. Unfortunately there are innocents hurt in the process.
Power is the ability to get what I want while others feel it was their choice to freely give to me. No strings. The ability to use gentle manipulation rather than brute force. But that is just my answer today. It changes.
Art, Science, Technology, Music, Literature, Culture etc...Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
*adding spirituality since it is the topic I have explored in depth.
What do you think of daily chores?
Yes and sometimes yes.
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
Not much. Throw on some music, get it done quickly so I can do things I would rather be doing.
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Reading the Wool series right now. The Screwtape Letters, Sword of Truth, anything by Anne Rice or Tolkien. I have over 400 books on my shelves not counting what's on my Kindle.
I prefer Sci-Fi/ Fantasy films but I will watch just about anything if it holds my attention in the first ten minutes.
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging
Cry = Loss
Smile = Goofiness
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
I can't answer this in any coherent way right now.
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
Them = My arrogance and I am uncompromising. My ex would say, "once again you have proven your superiority." whenever I would be proven "right"in in my theories or arguments. Then we would laugh about it. No tension. He had a masters in library science and I quit school in 8th grade but got my GED and went to computer tech school. I don't want to be seen as inferior because I don't have a high level of education. I educate myself on things I am interested in and I will seek a teacher when I can't figure it out on my own.
I mean I am pretty humble and all. People ask why I won't compromise. It's not that I won't, sometimes I just can't.I do cooperate though.
Me = I like myself finally but it took many years and therapy.
In what areas of your life would you like help?
It's kind of funny because people see my weaknesses as my strengths, that is once they know my history. Then it all make sense to them.People say I am compassionate and empathic. If someone I love truly needs me I will drop everything (if possible) and go to them. I have taken many last minute flights. I don't always want to but I can sense when it is needed.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
In maintaining my sanity. That is why I go to therapy once a week whether I want to or not. Bad things happen to good people if I don't. It's not hard for someone to become a casualty of my inner war.
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
No there's too much going on in my head to get in a rut.
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
I like someone who is outwardly aggressive and inwardly gentle. Consideration.
I get along with just about everyone in social situations. I can go from the ballet to the hip-hop club after a quick outfit change.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
I love romance and sex but I am not really romantic. I like romantic gestures but not too much. I am easily overwhelmed by the way people feel about me and can take on their feelings as my own, temporarily. I can get myself in trouble if I'm not diligent. I don't want to jeopardize what I have now. I have lost way too much.
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
N/A - I can't talk about this.
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
Inward = whoa! Then I consider my options. Once I do that I can respond to them instead of react.
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
I live on the fringe of society. I try to interact with people on their level. No real concerns, just do you, coz, I'm gonna do me.
How do you behave around strangers?
I have a tendency to hang with people that society looks down on. People who are considered "mentally different". I don't like the term "mentally ill". 1% Bikers, gangsta/thugs, strippers,addicts, artists, musicians. heh I have fun with them. I can share new ideas and experiences. I know I always have a safe home to fall back on and a lot of them don't. I have taken people into my home when they had no one else. I let them get themselves together, and they do, then they move on.
I size them up, then act accordingly.