My primary reason for being here is self-knowledge. I have always been interested in the nature of the psyche. It seems as if I am driven to understand my inner workings, sometimes to the exclusion of my outer surroundings. At times I feel like a supercomputer processing mass amounts of information, multitasking, running hot. Other times I am in sleep mode.
INFJ – Counselor Idealist
The Identity seeker/Bohemian tritype 4w5, 5w4, 9w1 sx/sp
I am in a 4 year relationship with a 6w5, 9w1, 3w2, sp/sx and it is intensely awesome.
One of the things I value most is my privacy. Ask me anything and you will usually get an honest, often well thought out, answer but if you go behind my back or spy on me you will most likely end up on my “short list”. My name is not Lola or Lita.
For the most part I do not care what others feel, think, or say about me but if you go after anyone I love, congratulations you have made my "short list”.
I do care how others feel and think about themselves though and I go out of my way not to hurt feelings because when I do it usually hurts me way more than it hurts them.
When I truly and unconditionally love you I will love you forever. It doesn't matter if the relationship ends I carry your energy with me. When it comes to ending close personal relationships I am usually gentle and will give your all the time you need to accept it. I won’t just cut you off but I will continue to do what I want to do and will be open about it if asked. I believe the primary reason people lie is out of fear that the truth will either hurt them or the other person. If I tell you a lie it is usually for the latter reason. I am still friends with my most of my exes.
I read, a lot. I thrive when I am gaining knowledge. I enjoy all types of books and music too. Music is my meditation. Currently I am into southern rap/hip hop but I also love more ethereal sounds. I love to read autobiographies. I want to know what makes other people tick.
I love all kinds of artistic expression.I often find beauty in things other's deem ugly.
I write, a lot. I scribble thoughts down on paper or write in my onenote. I often find it hard to read my own handwriting but when I am inspired to write something, whether it is a brief insight, a poem, a Sci-Fi fantasy, erotica or my musings I need to get it out or it drives me crazy! Once I write it I can relax.
Speaking of crazy… I am diagnosed DID. I am currently living co-consciously with several different personalities. I affectionately think of them as my poltergeists (noisy ghosts). They are my past, present and future. We are a conglomerate. I am in therapy.
I am selfish and selfless simultaneously. Rational and irrational. I am full of contradictions. I have explored many belief systems, religions, etc. I can see how each one can be found useful or comforting to certain individuals. The Tao is probably the one I can relate to most. I love exploring all things magical, mystical, supernatural metaphysical.I get premonitions and psychic visions. Lots of my dreams come true.I read tarot cards.
I seldom get angry but when I do it is an explosion that leaves people shocked and confused.
I have used drugs as an escape throughout my life. I was clean for years then I had a switch which led to two years of drug use and dealing. I am now clean for a year and done with my legal problems.
I tend to make statements then sit back and watch the reactions or responses I get. I am an observer of people, places and things.
I believe everyone has the right to make their own choices, express themselves freely and live their own lives without fear of judgment. I most likely will not judge another's actions as right or wrong but I will evaluate them to see if I can relate or if I am indifferent. I have strong opinions on some things but I know they are just that, my opinions and not facts. There are a lot of gray areas for me.
Anyway, I am interested in exploring socionics but unsure where I fit. I tried the test and my results were inconclusive, which kind of throws me because I can usually figure things like this on my own. I have an uneasy feeling when I am not sure about something. I am open and welcome the thoughts, feelings, advice of others and consider everything before deciding for myself.
Your Sociotype: ILI-1Ni (INTp)
• EII (INFj): 100% as likely as ILI.
• LII (INTj): 94% as likely as ILI.
• ILE (ENTp): 90% as likely as ILI.
Update: Settled on IEI 459 sx/sp