I think that the discrepancies between the dichotomies of EII and my actual behavior were one of the main red flags that got me wondering, cuz Serious and Declaring don't really add up with my behavior. And as I realize now, there's no way I'm a rational, as per my irl personality, not sure how my persona looks online. I'm a socially exclusive person while still being cordial and giving compliments/asking questions if I feel that it'd help the social atmosphere, but when invested in a conversation there's always an emotional aspect needed, so I'd say that sounds much more emotivist. Dynamic, absolutely, the relationship prospects I'm scoping out right now really say it to me. And, well, anyone that lives with me would say I'm yielding haha. My career endeavors have been varying chain links based on the next step forward, but with varying desired endings, and as long as it works out in the end it'll be alright, sounds pretty Tactical to me, but that emptiness aspect of reaching an end, that part solidifies it for me. And I kind of hate it too. Never got confused about Positivist, so there's that. As for Result/Process, I need to actually do more productive things and monitor myself to know, we'll see when that happens hahaha. Buuuut a ton of my complaints at work have been in relation to the system not meeting the reality, and I've been prone to taking advantage of the reality that the "systems in place" that I deal with can and will be bent to the whims of those who can get away with it....myself included, so then I stopped complaining and just went with it. Quite a liberating revelation that was, honestly. Sounds Result-ish to me. And I do have an erratic nature to getting things done, I'm all over the damn place, and I think that suits Result, methinks?
I kinda see what you're saying, but probably not to the degree you're sensitive to it. I just know I'm Asking, so I'll play off that I guess. The excessive "yeahs" and "uh huh"s and "I gotcha", me trying to climb over others to interject with something potentially stupid because I think it's funny and I expect people to appreciate this innane fucking comment that I impulsively had to blurt out for its own sake, and general social impatience, yeah I think I can go off of everything else that isn't that to really spot how the dichotomy generally looks, hah. I mean, even in the forum, my statements have always had a latent offer to be replied to/questioned, so yah. And hey, thank you for putting everything in front of me like that, I know a lot of this may seem rhetorical and for its own sake, but it helps when others line up questions for me
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Originally Posted by Iris
process, like I had already decided subconsciously, and was just considering the other option in mock urgency just because.. you know.. there could be other options.. or whatever. 
There's more to be said about this ambiguity I'm up against, there's just been...I dunno, an aggression slowly manifesting? Both an appreciation and desire to be more blunt, abrasive, and generally less amiable than I would normally say is characteristic of me, and I always relate the value of those things as more of an Se thing. But maybe that can be explained via a shift in my enneagram type, as opposed to an overhaul of my typological breakdown. But then there's the Ni weirdness going on, I'm always, ALWAYS so detached, like I'm perpetually somewhere else, and that's always felt like a Ni thing. And I love shows and movies and games or whatever for the dynamic progression of things, like such and such fucked up thing happened to this character which causes him to turn out this way and getting to see that slow progression is awesome, just as an example. Same with prophecies in things like that, and cryptic symbolic weirdness, I used to be a borderline Wiccan because of that type of shit, to the point that I've read the Tarot for myself to decide how to go about certain decisions. I'm an atheist now, but I think where I started may be most revealing of the framework of who I am, and I still love strange symbolism of that type, I inject meaning into so many things like that, and I'm obsessed with manifesting the meaning of those things and surrounding myself with them. If that even makes sense, I may just be a fucking nutcase. Alright I'm done spewing until I get more feedback hahahaha o_o
Aaaaand another thing, I'm impatient and I can yell and wanna break stuff (or sometimes throw stuff and once in a while break stuff) when I'm angry, it's really kind of childish most of the time but it's a thing I do, and I don't know where that fits with the general behaviorism of EII's at this point. Fuck I ranted again okay just trying to throw it all out there so anybody else can analyze what I've been mulling over for a while now, hopefully with some allusions to an answer, I hope this isn't obnoxious to everyone 
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