Iíve known about Socionics for about a year now and all this time Iíve thought I am Si-ISFp, but since the beginning of this schoolyear, I have been seriously doubting this. I donít know if this counts as a valid argument, but I am so different from my Fe-ISFp friend (I am sure she is Fe-ISFp, the type and function descriptions fit her so well itís almost scary) who is my deskmate in almost every lesson. For instance, when solving a math problem, she always needs to understand everything very thouroughy while I, when I donít understand why you need to solve something in a certain way, just do it as the formula says and donít care why it is the way it is. I usually understand how you get these formulas though, but I suck at explaining it to her. Also, when we go shopping (I donít really like shopping), she buys stuff that she likes right away, not really caring about the price. Whereas for me it takes a lot of time, because I look at the thing, think for a while, isnít it too expensive, is it worth the price, what will I wear it with etc. I canít really decide what to buy. So I usually donít buy anything, and when I do, then later I am still not certain. I usually wear dark clothes, the colors I actually like are soft pastel colors, but I feel that they donít fit me, because my appearance is quite gloomy. The first impression people get from me usually is that I am quiet, I like to be alone and some people even find me scary at first. Then they are always very surprised, because I am actually a very positive and happy person. I donít really put a lot of effort in how I look, I am not interested in clothes and make-up. Maybe people would think better of me if I did, but I think that people who only judge me because of how I look arenít even worth talking to.
When I go to my friendís place, we almost always cook. I donít mind cooking, but itís not something I would like to do every day, because for me, itís too tiring. She looks at a recipe once to see what ingredients are used, but she doesnít really measure anything. When I put one carefully measured ingredient in, I rush to the recipe to see the amount of another ingredient. I follow the recipe very carefully. I like to watch cooking videos though. To me, itís exciting to see the ingredients and how they turn into food. With books, too, I usually read the beginning, then the ending, and then the middle part, which I find the most interesting. I am more interested in the process, how things turned out the way they did.
A lot of my-aged (actually, almost all of them) people drink and smoke (I am 16), but I have never done these things. Itís because I donít want to and I find it stupid to do something just to fit in. Iím afraid of the health problems they may cause and Iím afraid Iíll get addicted.
My ISFp friend can lay in bed all day doing nothing, but I just canít. I hate it when my day is unproductive. I used to make write day plans when I was smaller and I was really sad when I didnít follow them. Now I still make plans but I almost never follow them.
I don't understand, why does everybody like travelling so much. Of course, it's exciting and all, but I don't really find it THAT interesting. Also, what is the point in vacation, where you just lay on the beach?
I have always been one of the top students in my class. Itís not that I really want to be the best, but I want to do MY best at everything and it also includes studying. I am probably going to be a genetic scientist in the future, but my ideal job and field that really interests me is psychology. But if Iíll learn psychology, Iíll have to go work abroad. Plus, everybody expects me to become a genetic scientist, and I feel like I shouldnít let them down.
Sorry about the grammar mistakes, Iím not a native speaker