when i was a kid i did things that other kids in my economic position didn't do like trips to museums and plays and local cultural events. i dunno how my iei mom got the money, maybe she got tickets through public assistance programs, but the investment she wanted to make in her kids was one of mind and spirit and she had the wisdom to see that through.
when i was in college i wrote a poem for my iei friend i was platonically infatuated with. i don't remember the whole thing, but i remember trying to capture some kind of invisible but tangible quality that came off her and there was a line about some kind of magic "twinkling off batted eyelashes and manifesting in gestures of her hands" and i think if i had the language at that time i could less gracefully but still pretty accurately describe that magic as her Ni. she described our meeting as serendipity and made me collages and mix tapes that seemed to accidentally and casually capture the emotional undercurrents in my life better than i could ever explain them to her in plain words.
yeah, yeah, i said magic. maybe Ni isn't magic or it gets dumb associations made with it or whatever but it often feels like magic to me. deal with it.
it was gamma nts here on the forum who were able to get through to me the concept of socionics being a map and not the territory and guided me through not reifying the elements which was revolutionary and helped me understand a way of thinking when it came to lots of things and not just socionics. opened a door of perception, lol. i wonder if any more doors will be opened in my life.
i hope my thread about shady ni egos didn't rub too many Ni folks the wrong way. i was using the forum as a sounding board (or a punching bag) for my issues and i didn't give enough thought to how it might make people feel.
to add some color here is an emo fucking song that is to me like a straight shot of Ni (this is kind of becoming an iei appreciation thread but thats just most of my experience i guess)
(dunno about the quality since i'm on my phone and not gonna watch it but it can be fixed later if needed)