My goodness, what has the world come to?
Obviously if I am LSE, it means that a lot of the people I know are typed incorrectly and that my understanding of Deltas, especially LSE's, is flawed. Both are most certainly possible.
Why after everything am I even willing to consider this typing for myself? A few reasons:
1.) At this point I'm open to pretty much any type possibility, especially ExTx types as the only dichotomy that I'm reasonably confident about is logic, and extroversion seems more likely than not. To be quite clear: I am not saying that I think I am LSE. I'm simply open to the possibility that I am for pretty much the first time.
2.) Someone who, to the best of my knowledge, doesn't know me at all messaged me on Facebook asking what type I am. I told him that I don't know, and he started asking me questions. He seems to have fair knowledge of Socionics, and neither he nor I was invested in any particular typing outcome... And after a couple of days and a lot of talking, he seems pretty confident that I'm LSE. (For anyone who's interested, he's the owner of the Socionics Facebook group called "World Socionics Society".)
3.) You all knew this one was coming, lol: It would appear my boyfriend is EII. I'm definitely not saying that he and I are duals, but rather that we're in the very least not conflictors... which means I'm most likely not SLE, my most recently favored typing. This also challenges my previously held concepts about what EII's even are, which brings into question my understanding of the rest of Delta.
4.) This is one of the few typings that explains my strongly conscientious streak. I can explain further if anyone cares to hear about it.
The bottom line is that I'm not sure it's possible to type me because my "the real me" has been so obscured over the years by ups and downs with psychiatric medications (Adderall primarily) and issues (namely ADD and depressive tendencies). It also doesn't help that I've been drinking too much too often for the past 15 years. It hasn't been long enough since I quit taking all of the medications to reveal what lies beneath, plus I don't know how pregnancy changes me, if at all. I also don't know if I should be considering what I'm like when I'm at my happiest and most productive (so far that would be when I'm "properly medicated") as who I really am. Just as an example, if someone is severely depressed or anxious or schizophrenic but transforms into a reasonably happy and healthy productive member of society when they're properly medicated, which person is "the real" them? I'm not completely sure that I actually have true ADD or depression, but I have at least partially believed that I have issues with those things for a very long time. It remains to be seen how this will all shake out once my body has re-stabilized after being off meds for an extended period of time and recovered from the hormonal fluctuations of pregnancy. I hope that I never go back on meds, but if that's what it takes to be my energetic, productive self again, that's what I'm going to do.
My preconceived notions and existing understanding of Socionics also create a barrier to typing me due to the ever present threat of confirmation bias. Also, it seems like I have a lot of conflicting characteristics. And I've changed so much over the years that for most questions, I say "I go through phases" as my answer at this point.