so I am starting to worry about myself.
Sometimes I lose interest in my partner. when this happens I just start getting really mean. then at the threat they're going to leave me I get super affectionate again.
I don't like this behavior. I'd like to know what causes it. How I can fix it.
In fact, I think if my partner punched me in the face, I would be completely turned on. When they're too nice, I start to lose interest.
Am I fucked in the head? Is this normal?
edit: I was in a textbook suffocating relationship.