So the ESI I've been talking to for the last 5 months and I had a chat last night.
There she was, crying on the phone, telling me how attracted to me she was, but the fact that she's 9 years older makes her feel creepy and she doesn't want to act on it. She wants to be friends but she can't because of the sexual tension, and I'm not allowed to hit on her because then it means I'm just a playa out for sex but she still wants to have sex with me and at the same time I'm not allowed to stop talking to her because that would break her heart.
I thought she was an E6. Suddenly I'm thinking E4.
ideas for a confused confused person? I feel like any move I make is going to be wrong. I can't stay friends with her and I can't leave her and I can't move toward her. Its almost sadistic.
ps: before this conversation, I called her 2 weeks ago and told her that I'm not going to chase her anymore and will only be friends. She was freaking out that everything we had was just "fake" like I'm just a playa. So at this point I feel like anything I do toward her is wrong.