This started off as a blog but I'm making it a thread.
now that I've been hanging out with girls more often I start doing things like analyzing the feelings I get when I listen to songs.
There is something I've tried to express to everyone that I never could seem to get to do.
Everyone has an inner world that is beautiful or emotionally powerful in some way.
For example: my younger brother listens to this music: (it gets particularly powerful around 3:20ish)
I listen to it and I think "ew, what is this? it makes me uncomfortable."
Then he likes art like this:
I look at it and I think, "gross,"
then when I put the two together, listen to the music and watch the picture, I suddenly see something completely different. I see an apocalyptic doom, coming on the horizon, with a sort of pleading for mercy tone to it, where people huddle together for safety, their communion is a very close and powerful bond, like two survivors of the apocalypse who find one another and join together feeling absolute comfort in finding one another.
I believe each person has some powerful theme that they cling onto. Their art, and their choice in music very much signifies this. Their actions in life also are a part of this.
I wonder if its personality related, or ennneagram related, or a combination of both based on quadra values. Regardless I find most E5's tend to hold the same feelings as my brother. I'd like to map out what it is each enneagram feels and why. I wonder if it even has something to do with Jung's Archetypes.
I now can TRULY appreciate his music and his art. I understand why he likes it, I know that someone doesn't simply "like something" because he's an idiot and likes shit that sucks.
So I've been trying to discover what it is about myself. My own inner world. What potent theme do I usually have?
It is one of alienation and willpower. A forlorn desolation where a light at the end of the tunnel obscures a crowd of people calling my name that I have to fight in order to reach. Its rather heavenly, for the most part. I find it is most strongly represented by this song, as well as the picture. It is a vision of "ultimate success," as if there are a bunch of people waiting who said, "you finally did it."
This is what I see ahead of me, visions of success after decades of struggle, knowing that one day I'll finally "do it."
If I apply it to other music, the emotions in this song speak to some sort of transience to life. The passing seasons, things grow, live, die. There's a sort of sadness about it that we can't necessarily dwell in. At the same time the song is restful and quells some fears of death by saying its natural.
So, what is your inner world like? What is your "theme"? What are your thoughts on this in general?
(ps: @Gilly, I was hoping you'd just copy paste your original response)