I can't discern whether I like someone or I'd like to fuck them. The attraction towards the target's psyche seems so real but sometimes after we have had sex for the first time, I feel like ordering a cab for her.
I don't even know how it works: If I just kept up the social interaction without having sex with her, would I develop something more permanent? I have tried this sometimes but I'm still not sure of the results. Just the fact that I'm that interested than it would overcome my libido speaks for itself.
I also think that this might have helped me getting laid. I think I'm attracted more seriously, I make her feel safe because she senses that.
Also, I've retrospectively noticed that sex rarely motivates me in itself. I might rather just sleep besides her than have sex and not sleep besides her. There has been occasions when it's purely the sex motivates me; very desperate and obvious.
There are also times when just the play of human interaction amuses me and her, both of us just wanting to seduce one another.
This is delightful in it's simplicity since it's all just so vague and pretty hard for me to understand.