More often than not I hate having to deal with a body at all.
Let me explain.
First, a concession: I do enjoy sensual pleasures of various kinds. Good food, good sex, a good massage all are wonderful.
I really could do without living in a body that I have to worry over and take care of. Because I am sort of all-or-nothing in this area.
For an example, take the massively scraped knee I currently have. I have been kind to it. I have gone online and read up on what exactly you're supposed to do for a scraped knee, and I've done (most of) it. Yet I still quietly freak out when I take off the bandage and see a layer of grossness on the wound and see it surrounded by angry red skin. I just want it to heal so I can go back to not having to think about it.
Also, there's food. I mentioned food above -- I said how I think good food is "wonderful." And surely it can be. But not wonderful enough for me to seek it out, and certainly not enough for me to actually cook anything requiring more than the minimal effort. As a result, my diet is bland (healthy, though, since taste doesn't matter much to me and I can easily pass up "tasty" things for "plain" things that do a body good long-term). If decadent food is in front of me, I will probably eat it and maybe even overindulge from time to time. But I have gone weeks and months without varying my bland diet because frankly my dear, I don't give a damn. In fact the less time I have to think about feeding and watering my body, the better.
So is all of this related to Si role, or just weak Si or what?
Also, hypochondria. Part of my dislike of taking care of my body, especially where wounds and illnesses are concerned, is the immense stress it causes. "What if it's x? Or what if it's y?! Oh my God, I think it's z and abc is about to take over my entire existence!" Is this related to weak and unvalued Si?
And before you say I just need an Si caregiver, let me say that I most certainly do not. I know they mean well when they make suggestions and do Si things for me, but I also can't help myself feeling that they're wasting their time focusing on something that will soon have faded into oblivion with hardly a trace. Also I feel like they are lecturing me, which is not fun.