Been having trouble determining my type. ^^ help me find it?
Things that I do know and am sure of:
Enneagram is 6w7 4w3 9w8 so/sx, I'm definitely a 6, loyal, skeptic, doubtful, there for the underdog, natural troubleshooter, anxiety is always there and I can go from phobic to counter phobic and confrontational in a heartbeat if I see bullshit going on, living things being mistreated or if I am attacked in any way. I like to devil's advocate a lot and have control issues where I mistrust authority, can do the things that are required of me if asked nicely and with respect...but react in a volatile manner if someone tells me what to think, feel and commands me around without my consent or me agreeing with what needs to be done. I'm especially attuned to recognizing imbalances of power, bullshit, manipulation, lies and falseness. I find that I can just read other people's emotional states and body language with ease, even if they try to hide it. I doubt myself and others, skeptical and like to challenge ideas and systems (shoot down the holes and see how they hold up). Like to challenge the status quo.
I'm also kind of not really healthy, some social anxiety, afraid of failing, rejection and ridicule. Have a certain amount of emotional scarring and oscillate between states of self confidence and very low self confidence. Certain avoidant tendencies are present. I'm just scared of rejection lol and may react in a volatile manner to it or just withdraw. Depends on the situation.
Sometimes I can't stop myself from seeing possibilities, which is why I have a problem with my typing...I could be this type or that, some of this is me some of it is not me. Normally however I'm better at getting to the core of an issue, finding the problems and generating ways of improving things (also skilled at solving technical problems as well as interpersonal and intrapersonal or social ones). Kinda suck at the "applying them myself part". Another problem I have is that I THINK A LOT..even when I don't intend to...so i come up with all sorts of things and sometimes it looks like I'm trapped inside my head. I love to debate, brainstorm ideas with others a lot.
I'm an NF (a bit more on the thinking side them most descriptions)...I don't care for poetry of excessive uncalled for displays of negative emotion (whining and "oh woes me" drama) . -.- really hate it when someone gets all dramatic and negative/hysterical..especially if it is fake and I can just see right through the act. I can understand outbursts of anger and assertiveness thou. I like to help where I can with advice and in a more practical way as well, to help other see a brighter side (even thou I tend to see the darker side more clearly myself).
I'm fairly disorganized, like to improvise, messy, but I do not like nasty surprises, so I anticipate things and prepare mentally, sometimes draw up plans for more difficult situations.
MBTI is xNFx as well. I really can't decide over there as well. Temperament wise it is Phlegmatic-Melancholic. I'm fairly easy going most of the time apart from anxiety and drive for deeper meaning or when I get reactive-defensive.
Socionics: I scored IEI and EII the most, occasional IEE and once ILI.
Alphas seem okay by my standards, maybe a bit too "out there";
Betas...I already said I don't like drama...but I cause a fair amount of it myself sometimes so I'm lost on this one. I can relate somewhat, but not a lot.
Gammas...seem like everything I'd oppose. I can see butting heads with this type of person pretty often. Main problem is the rules, rigidity, materialism, and greed.
Deltas this is the one I see myself the most in. Agree with all things from here, nothing to complain about.