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Pathologically avoidant to the point of sabotaging and/or bypassing promising educational/work/relationship opportunities
Extreme sensitivity to criticism
very internally anxious/moody, but it's not externally apparent to others - who often find me either poised/composed or cold/aloof
absolutely cannot function in a large group social setting (think networking event or big party), where I come off as extremely aloof. I can't get out of my own mind in these situations ("where should I stand? who should I approach?"). I invariably end up wandering around for 10 minutes nibbling on appetizers before sneaking out a side door. However, if I'm at an event/get-together where everyone is assigned a seat at a table, I typically am quite sociable, witty, and, arguably, charming.
Most important goal in life is self-actualization; but specifically, self-actualization in such a way that benefits the greater good. I have no ambition to accumulate impressive wealth, unless it allows me to put that wealth to use in charitable ways. I'm basically obsessed with the fact that I am not realizing my potential and that I've been directionless for the majority of my adult life.
I have this inherent sense of time and place, and our movement through time, if that makes any sense. I never need to carry a watch. I can always tell when I'm tight on time to within a minute or two...as long as I'm actively attuning myself to it. I'm often late to appointments and such because I get caught up in activities to the point of blocking out all other responsibilities.
I like repetitive activities (like hitting golf balls, shooting hoops alone, exercising or washing dishes). It provides comfort. I also enjoy listening to the same music over and over; preferably music that's melancholic, cynical, provokes an emotional response, or approximates the the feeling of being blessed by God's grace.
I have few friends. Those I do have I value intensely - like brothers. There is nothing better than connecting with someone in a true, meaningful way, stripping away our outward facades and emotional barriers and just being real (and discussing philosophy and politics).
I like helping others find their "bliss" or path in life. I want to see others find happiness/fulfillment.
I dress inconspicuously and I feel very uncomfortable when people clearly attempt to draw attention to themselves.
Do not like people watching over me as a I perform a task or activity. If I'm aware I'm being observed, I will botch simple activities in which I've acquired mastery.
My desk is extremely messy.
I enjoy puns.