Gamma or Delta, most of the people who have voiced an opinion on my type consider me Fi-ego. In this topic, I'm going to talk about why I am Ne > Se. You're free to disagree with it, and to present a rational argument against it if you would like.
One of my bigger flaws is a lack of focus on reality; this has become so much clearer this year, as I have been going through therapy and learning things about myself. I tend to imagine situations playing out, usually worst-case scenarios. These never happen, and I just end up wasting mental and emotional energy. I also tend to have a certain idea of how things should work and how people should act, and I get very bent out of shape when these standards are not conformed to. I am having to learn that it is alright to have standards but unrealistic to expect everyone to conform to them.
Finally, I have had to change my perspective on... many things, really, but especially in terms of my own personal power and capability. I beat my head against a wall with my parents, mostly to no avail, so I internalized the idea that I could not change things, could not effect people. Problems would not change, and there was no point in confronting an issue. I became an adult, and the reality changed; but I was still that depressed person who chose not to care because I was tired of being disappointed. I still fear trying, because I don't want to fail again and be discouraged; but I now have the power to change my situation even if those around me persist in their irritating, stifling behaviors.
In general, I am learning that reality sucks, but I will never change my situation until I am willing to live in it and roll with it. There is something comforting in knowing that 'this' is reality. It helps me to see what I cannot change and therefore should not stress over, and what I can (usually my perspective and/or my place within the situation). I have gone from wanting someone who will always protect me from the world to knowing I need someone who reminds me that I am strong and capable but that they'll be backing me the whole way and will ultimately step in if I truly cannot handle the situation.
This went in a different direction than planned. Such go these kinds of posts. Questions and comments welcome.