This purpose of this post is to respond to Ephys suggection that i write about my understanding of Ne. This is something that i am
happy to do, however having studied this subject for so long and as I have explained in a earlier post, as concerned about my typing
becoming a self fufilling prophecy, to avoid self confirming schemas. What would the best way of doing this be, IM's don't exist in isolation,
to talk about Ne without considering the other IM's as ego functions (of course this has been considered, reflected upon, cross checked using blind
conditions with those I know, and explained to humour affable yet awkward Romanians), of course this will not totally eliminate any risk of
bias, however by typing as a stream of consciousness (I may edit the grammar and spelling before posting, but not the content) I hopwe that I will
present my subjective understanding of the IM and how they relate to me. Once this has been done a thorough, consistent and methodical analysis
can be undertaken.
The word that I will choose is interesting. When I first read the description of Ne this
is the one that stood out. Amoungst anything else this is what sparks my mind. Novelty,
I'm in a novelty band, I started a novelty religion, I have began so may half baked philosophies.
EDIT - Of course these things will not prove to anyone that I'm an Ne ego, another reasonable explanation
can be found if someone is looking for one, however the point is these behaviours are examples of how my mind works, what it does- I look for potential within people and things and then move on, which I shouldn't (I'm actually on a stable career trajectory now - so hopefully all good. -
and started so many jobs and ventures it drives me mad, I've been an art dealer and . I want to be where possibilities are pregnant.
If I were to describe what I'm strongest at it is looking at multiple perspectives over a short period of time, not making conclusion, however looking for inconsistencies, patterns, trying to see what can exist that would produce these patterns. By looking for meaning rather than assuming meaning, I am able to gain an unusuakl understanding of situations (this has been measured and assessed)
how do I understand this, volitional force.
I have have a weak awareness of the concrete physical world around me, it has often been said that I seem disconnected from the world in which I live
I have a poor understanding of how to get what I want, when I do try to be forceful (when stressed for example) , I tend to be incredibly
clumsy and disproportionate, I cannot use the measured exacting level of force that Se egos use, I'm not in control.
I cannot look after myself, I have no need to for details or my physical wellbeing, I appreciate those who look after me,
who make my living easier, those who allow me to explore ideas and situations. I like food, I often don't eat well, my girlfriedn is so good in that
she makes sure I eat well and regularly, she does the laundry, I help but it's so good knowing that she has this structure.
She often tells me what to do, she mothers me in some respects, "make sure you eat" "do you need washing done" This of course is the
gritty unglamourous side of Si, The best part is her knowing where to go out to eat, knowing what places are nice, her aesthetic taste,
she decorates the house so well, everything is balanced in colour and comfort. She rock.
, during times of stress I have have drifted into a dream like imgaination, but I don't really get it, it seems too centred, visionary.
It is imagination but one that either is or isn't. It's good but not for me.