ALERT! Long post. Trying to give as much as I can. Written from the heart.
Hey guys. I'm 23 years old, male, from Belgium. Facebook
I'm wondering what my type is, so I'll talk about myself a bit.
Part A: wall of text
I'm always engulfed in thought, although I often try to act funny around people. I'm aware of that. Guess it's because I seek approval of some kind, because I haven't really found anyone (besides my brother) whose logic and thinking process is the same as mine. It gets to me sometimes. I want to find people like me. But the closest I have now, are people who like me. Can't blame my friends, they're who they are.
The past 2 years I've been feeling more and more uncertain about who I really am. In high school I had a few good friends whom I spent all my time with. They, however, were mostly interested in stuff in which I wasn't interested, like partying (too loud, can't talk), drinking (although I see the point now, and I drink a beer from time to time).
My friend Kenny always took me here and there, but often I didn't want to go. I was just happy that he wanted to take me, and eventually, I had a decent time. I just never saw the need to go to smokey, loud and fuzzy parties. I enjoy a game night a lot more. In fact, as a hobby, I'm a creator of sorts. My website http://enedin.be is an example of that.
My best work isn't on there, gonna rewrite that website in the summer. Anyway, I like creating things. K'Nex (I'm 23, but I enjoy making complex things with K'Nex, although I get bored easily, and then move on to another project), games (see website), graphic design, simple music, piano etc.
I like building things, modifying things as well, improving things. I'm always thinking, everywhere, about anything. A few examples:
- Through some weird spasm of the brain, I often think about math problems. Like, thinking about complex numbers. Trying to visualize i. Analyzing the beauty of math, and knowing how it works. I like to know how things work. Either I wanna know it all, or I do not wanna know anything.
- I started thinking about making a K'Nex ball, until I realized that it was never gonna be perfectly symmetrical. For a few hours I was twisting my brain, trying to find it, all the while doing something else! I'm ALWAYS doing multiple things at a time. Whenever I can focus all of my brain power into one thing, I get extraordinary results. Anyway, I finally found it, but the design was awkward to put together. Only when the final layer was brought in, was it stable. But then again, it's VERY stable. Lateral thinking, I like.
Etc, etc. Always thinking.
I try to do more lately. Stop thinking, and just do. It's hard, but it works. Although I get bored with things quickly, and I get thinking again. What's the OPTIMAL pattern for (a) driving my grandmother to the supermarket, (b) stopping by home (I live with my parents, am a student), (c) picking up my friend and (d) eating? I think about this in the car with the music on (no lyrics when I'm thinking, I think by talking to myself!) and finally I come up with the most efficient scheme.
And that makes me happy. So what makes me happy? Solving problems. I've found multiple times that I've invented a solution to a problem, only to find that it ALREADY EXISTS!! Even as a child, my parents shared my enthusiasm, and now I find out that it's no longer an issue. Oh well.
Once I have something figured out, I usually drop it. Like the game (website) I've made: spent 3-4 years on it, learned a lot on the way, and recently started thinking about remaking graphics for it. But I know how I'm gonna do it all, I know PERFECTLY how I'm gonna do it, and thus I don't do it. I added a level maker though, and I did that because it was completely new, but my brain told me I could do it.
And I did! Made me happy. Anyway, I'm a student in Graphical and Digital Media, but it's such a versatile educational package, that I'm still not sure what I'm gonna do. I have the feeling that I'm always looking, seeking. My reactions to a few headlines (oh yeah: I skip from A to B quite often, and nobody follows me, I hate it) :
- "8 year old girl eaten by father."
My reaction: wow, that's messed up.
- "22 year old man crashes and kills himself and 3 friends, reports say he was DUI."
My reaction: how stupid can you be, driving while under the influence of drugs. If you wanna drive, FINE, don't bring friends along. No respect.
- "56% of women say they would cheat on their husband."
My reaction: how many women were interviewed? Only women who read a certain magazine? Probably. 'nuff said, not statistically relevant.
Thins that annoy me: people not standing up for themselves, people ignoring their feelings (like my friend Fred who has a fat ugly girlfriend. She can be fat and ugly, I don't care, as long as he feels good when he's with her. Well, he doesn't, but he doesn't admit it. We've known him since we were 6, so we can tell. I hate that, FRED! Just BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF!)
More things that annoy me: people believing something that is proven false. My girlfriend, whom I'm having doubts about, and I told her, it's a bit of a bad situation atm. I don't think we fit together. Oh well. Anyway, my girlfriend does this all the time. If the scientific FACTS are there, there is no more dispute if the research has been conducted in a scientific and statistically correct way.
My girlfriend forms an opinion about anything, pretty much instant. She refuses to give it more thought. I'm the total opposite. I do not want to have an opinion unless I know enough to judge. I hate that about her, I've told her that, she denies it.
Things I like: a laid back house party, having my friends around me, even though I'm not fully myself around anyone, people don't understand my thinking process enough to be interested I think, so I just tag along most of the time. It's energy-consuming, but I don't wanna be alone.
More things I like: honest people, various kinds of music, math, the piano, programming, design, the deeper truth about things. (I hate how my girlfriend is shallow, because she doesn't think further. She forms an opinion too rapidly). I like knowing things, searching things, finding things and finding NEW things to be interested in.
My life has been characterized by periods of insane productivity and by periods of laidbackness. I try to find the balance, because I sometimes think I could have bipolar disorder, but there are worse things out there!
On the outside I'm cheery and happy, making jokes and trying to act funny. On the inside, I'm thinking deeply about everything, people and things alike, and wondering about numbers, letters and words that intrigue me that day.
PS: At parties, I'm always the first one to leave. I just don't get it. I want to get to know someone on the inside, not be shallow and get tipsy and move my body against her. What kind of reliable info is that?
Oh yeah! I'm always the planner and organizer for things I like. I know it'll get done correctly, and people know I can take good care of stuff like that.
To be honest, all I want to find in life at the moment, is someone like me. I'd really like to meet myself.
About humor: I like absurd humor. Airplane!, The Naked Gun, A Fish Called Wanda (also humor that requires some thinking, I don't like it when things get handed to me on a silver platter), I also enjoy Photoshopping friends and stuff on other pics. I'm currently reading about NLP. Which isn't about humor. Which actually makes that comment a bit funny. See how I have a weird sense of humor. My girlfriend thinks it's lame. I think she's lame.
I like playing RPG's, Metal Gear Solid and Ratchet and Clank. The game I enjoy the most is Micro Machines multiplayer vs 4 or 5 of my friends. We all enjoy it a lot.
I get why people believe in God, but it's (scientifically speaken) highly unlikely. I don't judge people for their religion, although I like to challenge their own views and get them to a part where they say "huh". Although they are usually too stubborn to say that In return, I allow them to tell me about their views, as I think that one's perspective is more important than the actual thing we're looking at. We all have filters.
Part B: media.
2006. Listening to music while the designated guy for that day is making food.
2006. Swimming with my friends in France.
2006. Guy took a picture after yelling "JAN!", and what you see is actual surprise.
2009, trying to look cool on purpose. I like this pic.
1992 or so? Not sure. It's old! Me and my bros.
2010. Fooling around on vacation.
2007. Wearing my new fake Umbr™o shirt!
2006 I think. My bro, me and my dad.
2007. Me and my best friend at the time in Spain.
2007. Wondering what to eat for breakfast.
2010. Wearing 2 safety jackets allows me to float on the water. Awesome idea!
2010. One of my favorite pics. I'm the only one wearing a helmet and my jacket, but I never took 'em off. Can't stand the sun anyway.
2010. My mom, me, my bro 1, my bro 2 and my dad. Soccer tournament.
2007. @karting, we just exited and sweating all over the place.
2010. Best group pic of that vacation.
2010. Raising the glass (it was my turn) to a song sung in local culture.
2006. Fooling around with my bro's girlfriend at the time.
2010. Gonna play mini-soccer.
2010. Eating McDonald's. I love the occasional crap.
2010. I'm the only one who was brave enough to go sing a song in a karaoke at the camping we were at. Was fun!
2010. I really like this, I seem really happy. I also was very happy. We're doing that same trip again this year, but with more people. I won't be the same, but it'll still be great. And I'm organizing it, as people expect of me. I don't mind, it allows me to keep things in check and make sure we're prepared.
That's me, and I have an idea about my type, but I'm not sure. Can you help me?