Hi. I'm new to this forum and have recently become interested in socionics. It's taken over my mind. I have strong suspicions about my type, but I think it would limit my understanding of the theory if I mistyped myself. Search for reassurance and explanations it is.
Honestly, I'm unsure what is really relevant in typing me accurately because I feel like I've had completely different personalities throughout life. I'm sure there's a common denominator, but obviously I'm not too clear on what's really like.
Okay I'm going to try.
I find being in the company of intelligent people to be the most enjoyable. I can't be attracted to an idiot. However, I find that I'm much more outgoing around people that I don't respect. That's probably a confidence thing. I'm scared to be myself if I care about someone's opinion of me. Let me clarify: I'm not automatically more outgoing around everyone I don't respect. However, if friends or acquaintances with both, I'm more outgoing with the stupid ones.
Responsible and hard-working are also qualities I enjoy. I think "fun" without either mental stimulation or productivity is annoying and usually painful for me. I just hate social obligation.
It's probably starting to be clear that I'm completely cynical. Most people are useless, stupid, untrustworthy, selfish and inconsiderate and I don't like them. If you do win my approval though, my devotion, love, respect, loyalty, patience, mercy, etc., is (probably self-destructively) immense.
I strive to be perfect and to make other people proud. If someone I respect is proud of me, I'll probably want to go cry from joy. I'll never forget it. Likewise, their disappointment or disapproval will kill me internally. Disappointment/disapproval of anyone matters though, unlike pride or praise.
I hate change, but it always happens.
I'm a jealous person. I try to hide it.
I love solving problems and puzzles. I love analyzing things and people. I love technology.
When working together with people, I hate leadership and assertiveness, but I will do it if it needs to be done and no one else will. I'm incredibly prone to overwork myself to compensate for the failures of others in order to save the end product/goal.
If you want to make me laugh, there are several ways to go about it. 1. Be clever. Thinking before laughing is best. 2. Be really offensive (but not to me). Satire and sarcasm are great. Genocide, gore and murder are usually funny. 3. There are a few silly things I really like that I can just giggle about. Like certain animals, cute word sounds, silly food I like, etc.
Don't be vulgar or stupid about it. Comedies usually don't make me laugh, just facepalm.
Writing and speaking with clarity is a weak point of mine. My thoughts are too disorganized and I don't usually think in words. I have a hard time knowing when I've explained enough or how to get my point across. Like this self-description.
So, ask me questions. I'd love to answer them.
Also, please, please, explain your reason for any type you give. I want to understand socionics and myself.