I keep a blog on one of the other forums I participate in and the following, and here's my latest entry. Just wondering what socionic type is most likely to have the following mindset. I'm guessing some sort of ego.
So I feel a lot less down about the job situation thing. I think its a matter of time healing all wounds. Sure the little bit of extra money would have been nice but I'm no worse off financially then I was the day before I received the rejection.
I don't really have a burning desire to teach anymore. I left that profession because it was burning me out. Still it bothered me to be rejected even though I didn't really want to do the job in the first place. Yeah its kind of stupid to think that way. I think part of the joy in getting a job offer is knowing that's its possible to have the job if you really wanted to. And knowing that someone thinks you'd be a really good fit and hires you is a definite boost to the self-esteem.
I guess I see rejection like having possibilities taken away from me. I felt the same when I was rejected from Target and a bunch of major retail stores. It's hardly my dream job to work in retail, yet if I got an offer, then I know its possible to work there, and its another option I have.
I find knowing that its possible to do something ultimately more satisfying than the actual doing. I remember a few years back, I was really into exercising and physical fitness. When I first joined the gym, I took a fitness test and scored low on most measures. After several months, I managed to score in the above average range, something I felt really good about because I'd never been the physically fit, athletic type. After seeing the score, I knew that being physically fit was *possible* for me to attain. But shortly after that, I started slacking off on exercising and saw my fitness dwindle. I guess I just wanted to know that physical fitness was *possible* for me to attain. I wasn't nearly as interested in doing the work to maintain it.
I find it very unsettling when there are requirements beyond someone's control that are necessary to attain something. Did you know you that you have to be between five-foot-six and five-foot-ten in order to be a rockette? Now I've never wanted to be a rockette and doubt I will ever want to but I'm five-foot-four, so I this is one thing I know will be impossible to attain. What if the aspiring rockette was absolutely perfect in every other way but fell just short of the height requirement? Again, its like having a possibility taken away from me. I'm very sensitive to that.
Here's another example, in order to apply to be a Navy Seal, you have to be a male and no older than 28 years of age. Well I fail on both regards. The male requirement is there because only males can serve in combat. Sure I understand why there's rigorous physical requirements to be a Navy Seal and if you're over 28, chances are you're already past your physical peak but what if you're a male over 28 whose one of those rare people who's still in tip-top shape? Shouldn't you be given a chance? Again, I've never wanted to be a Navy Seal anyway, but I cringe when reading requirements like this.