Thanks for thinking up this exercise. I'm glad I was able to do it. Most of what I wrote comes straight from my experiences, and I didn't get it from anywhere else. Only now am I noticing a few of the subtle associations with the online descriptions.
This is what I naturally think about and focus on without any effort. It comes to me naturally and I almost don't like to force myself to use it, because I feel that my instinct on what to think and when to act on it is strong enough, and I will naturally do what is needed. I don't feel bad when people dislike me because of this function; I am too confident about myself when it comes to this (and I might not even notice it.) However, people who show a lack of care in this function make me upset, or people who use it to focus on something insignificant to me, make me upset, like the neighboring quadra who values this, but uses it with my PoLR and demonstrative functions. Everything in life should revolve around this function, and other people need to see what they're missing, or else continue having an unfortunately incomplete understanding.
I'm very creative with this. I take on an open-minded, up-for-anything approach toward this, and I'm easily enlightened by new ideas from other people. When they're not looking, I'll take this new idea or piece of information they gave me, and test it out in a creation or creative fashion. I like to apply to this function, ideas and information I gather with my dominant function and test them out in real life, but soon enough I'll discard them and find new ones to test out, in a continuous cycle of unsettled creativity. Like on an Etch A Sketch®, no matter how much I like the picture, it has to be erased so I can start again. I'm never able to settle this function, and it doesn't always have to be complete, work, or make sense, because I feel like there's always more time to plan it out and play with the variables it involves. This function can become too overwhelming and dissatisfying when things aren't clicking. Since my dominant function is displeased, a break from the larger ideas constituting this function becomes very necessary, and there is a reminder not to get too involved and take it too seriously.
When I use this function, I can tend to feel awkward because its a sort of fake, alternate way of going about things. I'm happy when this function is eliminated from most set ups. I can be okay at this, but I won't really care to, so people tell me I'm just not good at it, even though I sort of make the excuse that "I really just don't care" and I act like I don't care, so they shouldn't be surprised. But I do have this natural propensity to come back to it and breach the limits on what I thought was possible at the time, and then decide once again that it's just not that important. I'll do what is necessary, if I see something where I just have to.
What's the deal with this anyway? Why do people bother me with this function? Yeah I'm bad at it, but at the same time I don't see any reason why others should be good at it. I have no plans to care whatsoever about this function in the realistic future. People should just accept me for who I am, and not obsess about these trivial ideas. If I decide to go for it, then I will, but don't expect it of me. I don't really have standards here, and I'll just go with what other people tell me in that moment, not caring about next time.
I like this function a lot, but it's not really on the top of my mind. It's a personal preference, an ideal, that I'd like to be there in my life, but don't have the time or capacity to fulfill it myself in a professional way. I really like everything about this function and I respect it and people who are good at it. I actually have a natural tendency to lean toward this lifestyle, but it's never as good as "the real thing." I like when someone fixes a problem I have with this function, or shows or tells me how to. I dislike when people deny this function of me, and they don't respect it. When that happens, it can make me feel lost and uncomfortable about my internal state, like there may not be hope for a while. When this element comes back to me, if someone is able to supply it adequately, I feel like life is starting to get better again, and I have that same freedom and confidence I had at the beginning.
This is a big part of my life, but apparently some others are more extreme with it, so it diminishes my sentiments and personal attitude toward it. Compared to the suggestive function, I won't really like someone fixing the problem or telling or showing me what to do, but I won't be completely closed off to advice. To me it's this personal hidden thing, and I don't really care a lot how others chose to go about it, though I have somewhat of a respect for them, and I can sometimes step outside of myself to find their way of life very fulfilling and find myself envious. I feel like there is much to say and do around people of this function, and I can constantly interact with them in a free manner, when I'm in the mood. They will accept me, question and advise me in a positive way. At my very best, I feel like this is the underlying soul and conscience in everything I do. It can tend to haunt me and really question what my ego functions are doing.
This comes naturally to me, but I can really only focus on it when I'm in the mood, which is not incredibly often like my ego functions. It doesn't always come when I need it, nevertheless it stays tuned in the back of my mind, unknowing of its effect on me. I'm more likely to seek use of this function independently, and not ask for help. I can sometimes regret asking for help, because I find the answer all of a sudden obvious once I ask the question out loud. I have a tendency to say things to people, relating to this function, with a lack of knowledge, but acting like I really know what I'm talking about (even though I don't have the care or patience to really think about it). I don't really invest a lot of time or care into this, but I witness this natural ability activate within me, and it works to my advantage in many scenarios, or at least helps me understand something I've recently been curious about. Sometimes the way people use this makes me interested about what I could do, and I may want to prove my ability in this and chose to master a certain element of this. I may have the sudden desire to develop this skill and show people how good I am at it, but I usually start letting myself down because of inconsistency and overestimating initially how much I have to understand. It's too much of a hassle in the long run, since this one thing I want to achieve soon becomes a bunch of things I can't handle. This function is more of a "give-or-take, don't try to force it," and I can never fully master it like I can with my dominant.
This can tend to be very uninteresting when others bring it up and show me what can be done with it, and give me advice. My feeling on this is usually: "I don't want to go deep into a discussion of it with you. I get the main idea of what you're saying." I sort of naturally see the benefits of this function, but I don't put a lot of energy into doing anything about it. It's really not my top priority, and I can easily neglect this and then find myself wondering why I'm having a difficult time in life. I can then come back to this, as a sort of "reset and get back on track" method, but not consistently proving myself here. I consider people who are good at this function as fairly intelligent, good at what they do, and someone I could ask questions about blanks in my understanding. I need to work more on balancing this function with my every day life, and give it its due attention, but it's mainly just something I don't care much about. I lack the consistency in this area to really master it.