Remind me to make this topic a blog post too....
So as I'm getting deeper in meditation, I will start to feel my own ego, in my brain- and feel it vanish. It really does shrink on itself. It's definitely an 'illusion' like what the spiritualists say. However it's more complicated than this. For example I can completely deplete my ego, but then in three seconds it will come back and be even stronger this time. It's just like in the book Undoing Yourself said, the ego is very , very strong and it might be psychologically impossible to totally do away with it, but I want to try. As the deeper part of me is so strong and can conquer anything, I need to tap more and more into that.
I care about nothing else. Diana Lang said, that 'if we didn't have an ego we wouldn't go after things.' But so what? What is there to go after? There is only becoming and allowing. There is only pure simple truths. There is nothing to 'go after' I am disappointed in her, as I trusted her with the meditation CD. However I realize, like Miley Cyrus, she's another pure demon who just likes to roll naked in money like everybody else, and doesn't care about totally ridding themselves of their psychological weaknesses to become fully enlightened and reach Nirvana.
I understand I have no friends in this, but you have to be prepared to be very unpopular if you're gonna take on a task of this caliber. I also need to study other meditation practices, although I don't know where to look.
I am of the firm belief however, that ego is your worst enemy, and nothing is more dangerous than the ego and 'mental chatter' and believing all your thoughts that pop up. No matter what they are. And sorry Diana (ms. lang not forum diana) but I disagree with you, when you say ego is harmless and has to be balanced as it was your ego itself that told you to write that as its own defense mechanism, stupid pure demon bitch. I sensed deeply that you were full of shit when you wrote that, even though- there are other stuff in your book that's good. =)
Come on girls. Let's fuck up those egos. Do you really want the first evil to win?