It is the stupidest shit ever.
I am actually upset over the fact that someone changed their type. Like legit pissed. I feel scattered, angry, I feel scared like the my life is about to take a turn for the worst.
Usually I just explode somewhere private and convince imaginary people in my head that they are wrong.
I want to punch something. I want to yell. God its so silly. Its like the world has come to an end, its fuckin over. No more world everything was a lie and I believed it.
I cant even help it. All i want to do is yell at this person or cry. I know its stupid but i seriously can't help it. This person doesn't deserve it and I have no right to be upset.
I've just built too much off of my conception of this person as type "x" that if I let this go it will destroy everything I've done. Its all wrong. I have to start from scratch. I dont want to start from scratch. Ive been wrong about everything ;sdjlsjdalkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkklakshfj hdjkfjhsdkfhkjdshkjfhkjdshfkjskdfsdhfjshdfhsjkdfhk sdhkfjhsjkdfhjksdkfsdjfjksdjfksjdjfhsdjhlkdshflskd hahslkdahjklhdfjksafkjhskjfhlkjshdjkfdsajkdfjkslsj kdjkfsjdjfsjdfjsjadhljsdfsfs
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please dont despise me I try to make it stop but I cant. I need to go through the ritual now. The ritual of convincing myself im right, laying in my bed, until i fucking fall asleep.
Maybe Im just insane. I think im insane.