Mainly I'm concerned with dis/integration of 8s and 5s.
I believe I am a 5, but I don't think I have ever experienced turning 7ish under stress. If anything, under stress I become withdrawn like a 5. When I have been in exceptionally good moods I have surprised myself by acting helpful and caring like a 2.
Can anyone (preferably an E5) describe what it looks like when a 5 disintegrates into a 7? and have any 5s had occasional 2 tendencies?
why I think I might be an 8.
I never back down from conflict situations and have been known to instigate fights on occasion. When angered, I pretty much let it loose, and don't usually recognize anger until after or when someone points it out, though I am pretty slow to anger. I tend to think less of people who have shown themselves to been incapable, and I feel stressed when someone makes me feel incapable. When it comes to doing anything I don't want to, I'm hard to convince (not a "go with the group" kind of person). Strong need for independence.
Why I don't think I'm an 8.
I don't feel like I try to dominate people. I'm not forceful unless crossed or challenged. I'm not as "ready for action" as many descriptions describe. Don't consider myself a leader, but capable of leading.
Why I think I'm a 5.
I am fairly withdrawn/quiet and feel anxiety in unfamiliar social situations. Very cerebral/logical. At times nihilistic/melancholy. As a child, lived in "my own little world." Fairly private lifestyle.
Why I don't think I'm a 5
Don't relate to "knowledge-seeking", though I do value knowledge and will spend a lot of time researching things in areas of interest. Not very bookish (typically have no patience for reading unless I'm truly interested). Don't feel as disconnected from the world as I did when I was younger, though still have moments. Only half relate to the idea of having a "secret inner world."