I feel lonely most of the time. It is complicated. I have a personality where I need alone time...but crave friendship... but when you draw in (as I do), just to get more emotional or mental strength, it is miscontrued as either two things: not caring to be connected OR being super self-sufficient and independent - neither are ... Read Moretrue! So... I feel frienships are hard for me, truthfully speaking. It's like I understand the problem but don't know how to fix it b/c I don't know how to change and I am not sure people do or can really change. Capice? I had a friend in recent times who would come after me, call me, was proactive with me -- which is good, but we had a major falling out and even though that relationship was not healthy for me, long-term, I do miss the social aspect of it.